I've officially spent a year here in the states, I attend a college in los angeles (about 30 minutes from hollywood) 80 percent of the girls just wanna get fucked by a guy who doesn't give a fuck about them.
I definitely want to become that kinda person but I grew up really close to both my parents and they were always there to monitor and bring me up to be very respectable, calm and obedient. These straits have definitely not given me any luck in a whole year since I've been here. I'm black and I see slutty white girls giving me iois in class, parties and clubs, but as soon as I start to talk they know I'm that guy type of guy(even though I really want to just fuck and leave them)
I know what and how to act to come off as what these girls want but to me it's like reciting a movie script. ....I'll probably bust into laughter if I try saying something like "ayy shawty you gat a cigarette? "....it's not just me at all
Sometimes I feel I shouldn't even talk to girls because as long as I don't talk, they think I'm alpha and fuck tons (I hardly smile, have a good walking posture and dress nice) I also started going hard at the gym (went from 150lbs to 173lbs in 3 months....I'm also 6'1) I know I'm starting to look way better and I'm getting more attention, but it's not still solving any problem if I'm not going to be who most of them want.
I definitely want to become that kinda person but I grew up really close to both my parents and they were always there to monitor and bring me up to be very respectable, calm and obedient. These straits have definitely not given me any luck in a whole year since I've been here. I'm black and I see slutty white girls giving me iois in class, parties and clubs, but as soon as I start to talk they know I'm that guy type of guy(even though I really want to just fuck and leave them)
I know what and how to act to come off as what these girls want but to me it's like reciting a movie script. ....I'll probably bust into laughter if I try saying something like "ayy shawty you gat a cigarette? "....it's not just me at all
Sometimes I feel I shouldn't even talk to girls because as long as I don't talk, they think I'm alpha and fuck tons (I hardly smile, have a good walking posture and dress nice) I also started going hard at the gym (went from 150lbs to 173lbs in 3 months....I'm also 6'1) I know I'm starting to look way better and I'm getting more attention, but it's not still solving any problem if I'm not going to be who most of them want.
