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(01-04-2017 08:50 PM)samsamsam Wrote:
Haven't been on in ages and look, I get a late Christmas present. A weak entitled male unwilling to pay the price for his mistakes posting as if he is the victim. Talking as if he knows what side is up. As if he is now a changed man.
It boils down to this, you have demonstrated that you are a waste of a human being with a history of terrible decision making.
You say you could get a job to pay for the car and everything else. Then just do that, the only reason you want your money is because you know you can't do it. You know if you had to stand on your own two feet, you would fail. But you talk a big game.[/quote]
Yeah, except I have done that before. I moved out before and worked two jobs for a year and a half, and I didn't "fail," as you are saying.
When I moved out, I did have to borrow about $1500 from my family to pay for food and rent until I got my first paycheck. If my dad wants to offer me that again, then I won't need the 17k. The whole entire reason I'm even considering this is because I have tried to sit down and talk to my dad many, many times about this, and he won't even discuss it with me.
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(01-04-2017 08:50 PM)samsamsam Wrote:
H1N1 has posted some extremely solid advice and observations. As have many others. You should take it to heart. And never demand advice be of a "constructive nature" - if someone on the forum has taken the time to read your posts and post a comment that they believe is helpful, then you take it and don't bitch about it.[/quote]
You're right. I shouldn't be bitching about any of the responses, and I do appreciate you and everyone else taking the time to read my posts.
Surely, though, you can understand that it is difficult to be appreciative grateful when someone writes a post telling me that I am a disrespectful asshole, a spoiled child, and a worthless human being, and offers no constructive advice. I guess I should just ignore those types of responses, but it isn't the easiest thing to do.
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(01-04-2017 08:50 PM)samsamsam Wrote:
Maybe your father knows he could have been a better father and is just trying to keep you from fucking up even more. It sounds like your family is broken and not all because of your father. You wrote something about South America. Maybe it is the money side of the family that fucked you up because they made life too easy on you (you wrote as if they would help you out - so I imagine they have at various times).
You seem to have no gratitude. That is a fatal flaw in building relationships. Among the strongest male friendships I have been in (and witnessed) gratitude and loyalty (I don't sense you are strong here either) play a major role.
You are young, you have no experience, you don't make good decisions, but on this matter about the bonds you will make the smart choice?
No, I don't think I alone will make a smart choice. That's why I've spent months talking it over with my girl and close friends of mine, and why I decided to post about it on here.
The only thing I have complained about are the insults and personal attacks I am receiving from some people. Any actual advice about what to do in this situation (like the advice you are giving me) is totally welcome.
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There will be a day when your father is gone and you will regret much of what you have done to him. You may not like his choices, but few parents actually think "hey how do I fuck up my child?" They do the best they can, maybe it isn't good enough in your opinion, but they are trying because they give a shit. Don't gripe about someone who cares and is trying to help you. That means they care, it is when they stop giving you advice and trying to be involved in your life, that they don't.
Man up, pay your father back and let the rest of it sit there. Or strike a deal and ask for a few grand but not all. Then work as you say you will and
DEMONSTRATE that you have your shit together. Then you will earn his trust. You gripe that he is too blue pill and that he made you who you are. You are on a forum of men that strive to be red pill. The red pill move in your situation is to start acting red pill.
I bet the first thing you do if you get all your money is to buy a few gifts for your girl and yourself and a big lavish dinner. You have no emotional control, which is another sign of a weak man. You know it and I know it that this money won't last.[/quote]
A few years ago, I had moved out of home and I was working two jobs to support myself. I had been doing that for about 6 months, and my dad even told me that I was doing well, he was proud of me, etc. And yet, when I asked him for a few grand out of the bonds, he said absolutely not.
There is no negotiating with him about it.
Actually, the only way for me to negotiate with him would be to first take them. Once I have them in my hands, then he would be willing to negotiate. Maybe he lets me keep a few grand to move out, and I let him hold on to the rest. I would be willing to agree to that.
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(01-04-2017 08:50 PM)samsamsam Wrote:
You didn't earn the money, legally it is yours. But if you actually earned that much money you would know the struggle, the sweat, the pain, the blood that took to get it.[/quote]
Yes, of course I didn't earn the money. When I said it was "my money," I only meant legally.
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(01-04-2017 08:50 PM)samsamsam Wrote:
You live in fear/scarcity or else you wouldn't think that a sickly woman would be the ideal wife for you at 25. That wreaks of desperate energy.[/quote]
Ok, these comments about my girl are starting to annoy me a little. Obviously, I understand that physical health is very important. However, what do you recommend I do in this situation? I have been with this girl for almost 10 years, since she was 16 or 17. We have been planning a life together for a long time. Nobody else in her family has any serious medical problems. She is actually doing quite well in terms of her medical problem. There have not been any serious problems since she got the transplant back in 2008. She also has a very good attitude and takes care of herself very well. She comes from a good family and has good values and beliefs. Seriously, what am I supposed to do? Should I call her up out of the blue and tell her I'm leaving her because of the medical condition (after almost 10 years together)?
These are serious questions. I want to know what you think I should do. Sure, maybe I should have taken her medical condition more seriously back when I met her, but it seems like it's a done deal now. I made my decision. Dumping your wife of 10 years out of the blue like that doesn't seem like a decision a responsible man would make.
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(01-04-2017 08:50 PM)samsamsam Wrote:
In your heart, you know you need to suck it up and deal with some pain and pay the price for all your bad decisions, but I sense you are too much of a pussy to do it.
But you just want the easy out. What happens when that money is gone? Because I guarantee that you will piss it away.[/quote]
This is where I disagree. I don't think I should have such little confidence in myself that I decline to take opportunities out of fear that I will fuck up.
Now, I'm not saying that this bond situation is the best opportunity for me. If you're saying I shouldn't do it because it's not that much money and it isn't worth wrecking my relationship with my dad over, I can understand and respect that.
All I'm saying is that I don't think it is best for me to have an attitude of "I'm not going to take this opportunity because I'm just going to fuck up and piss the money away." That seems like a defeatist attitude. It's one thing to acknowledge your past mistakes and take steps to avoid repeating them, but it's another thing to have no confidence in yourself whatsoever and to believe you are doomed to always repeat the same mistakes.
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(01-04-2017 08:50 PM)samsamsam Wrote:
Now back to my hibernation.
P.S. If you only came with some humility, maybe the the responses would be less aggressive. You are not that great, you have not accomplished anything, and yet you have no humility.
There are countless members on this forum, who are world beaters, who have done amazing things. From serving in the military, to multi-millionaires, to people who have got their shit together and living abroad. And these great men have so much humility. Some of these guys could kill others quickly, but they are so articulate and they are in control of themselves. And then there is you.
But I want you to do well in life. I want that for everyone, especially the men on this forum. And your success doesn't hurt me, why wouldn't I want you to be successful? But the path you are headed, isn't the path to success. And yet, you can't see it. I don't know why you bothered posting, just do what you want to do, basically it just seems you wanted a lot of attention like a girl.[/quote]
You're wrong. I don't just want attention. I actually somewhat regret starting this thread, given some of the responses I have gotten.
Just because I have resentment and anger towards my father (for what I believe to be good reasons) doesn't mean I am full of myself or I think I am great or anything like that. Obviously, I'm young and I haven't accomplished shit in my life. I don't think I'm better than anyone here.
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(01-04-2017 08:50 PM)samsamsam Wrote:
And I bet there are guys whose fathers have "done worse" to them who wished they would have fought to try and improve their relationships with their fathers. Family matters. Honestly, you mentioned that you wanted children. Do you honestly think you have your shit together to have kids?
If this was rough, it was intentional, seems like you have been coddled much of your life.[/quote]
I don't mind the "rough" responses. I appreciate your advice and I don't think it was too rough or anything.
No, I don't think that I "have my shit together" to have kids, but I also don't believe I should have a defeatist attitude about it. If I were to wait until I had a college degree, a good job, and a house before I had kids, then my girl would be 35 by that point, and I would end up with deep regrets for the rest of my life.
And yes, I suppose I could dump (or rather, divorce) my girl, focus on getting my life together, and then look for a new girl later on, but that is just too big a change for me at this point. I don't think I'm willing to do something that drastic. It seems a bit reckless (not to mention fucked up) to me.