Quote: (08-03-2018 10:43 PM)lavidaloca Wrote:
I actually believe understandbpd's story in regard to his relationship with a bpd in entirety...including the defecating part. Aside from the defecating nothing was that outrageous. I'm sure plenty of guys on the forum have performed golden showers. Tag the sponsor shows a number of girls get shit on as well.
It's good that you got away from her. People with BPD especially those who haven't got it under control are incredibly dangerous. A close family member of mine has it. Having had so much experience around I can safely say if I ever met a girl who I suspected had BPD or I knew had BPD I wouldn't have anything to do with her.
I do think also that she has other Personality Disorders as well, not exclusively Borderline Impulsive alone.
Other things which are unusual, which she did. The main problem is that she also
noticed that because of her beauty, the society tend to forgive everything outrageous an extremely beautiful girl does :
44. She told me her friends knew that she talks often about demons, shit (fecals) and satan, that she has some sort of inclination towards this.
That her parents told her that all the health of the human being can be checked
in the shit, so she would always look in the toilet after finishing her needs,
to check how her stool looked like.
45. She would repeat often "buy me plastic surgeries or I break up with you"
46. All of her decisions or opinion were instant impulsive reactions, she did not
think before talking or doing something, she only reacted impulsively in an instant.
47. She did not keep her promises usually, she would forget a promise that she made and then ignore it.
48. She had Favourite Persons in every one of her jobs: people she was attracted to and telling me she wants to have babies with them, even if sometimes she did not even talk to the respective persons.
49. She faked her CV, large part of her official documents when she declared something in official registration papers for example.
50. She was very excited studying for universities admissions, but then could not keep up and abandoned each of the studies she was admitted into.
So she changed many faculties: she was getting bored in less than 1 year of each faculty studies : cosmetics, polish literature, chemistry in politechnika. (1 year each)
51. She had the emotional enthusiasm of a 3 year old child: she would often tell me to come smell her ear because it was stinking very much, or she was farting very much and very disgusting intentionally after any product that contained milk.
Chocolate would usually make her hyperactive and aggressively / negatively talking
nonstop for hours, until late hours of the morning (6-7 am).
52. She did not take the time to admire a nice place or a nice landscape she was at. She was behaving anxious to constantly move without stop, run, exercise, had a hard time often to just sit still.
53. She was staying naked in ground floor apartment, but when I pulled the curtains she made a big scandal because "it is her body and her choice if someone sees her naked or not!"
54. I didn't go with her on the exact way and steps she wanted, so she didn't let go of my fingers so hard that she almost broke one of my fingers.
55. She wanted very brutal sex, she explained me that she wants anal sex plus to be strangled very hard because only so she can have orgasm (she said that for a moment the brain stops receiving oxygen and that makes the orgasm stronger)
which I found it very strange, and basically unable to satisfy her requests.
56. Her fulfilled fantasies with clients of prostitutes were very extreme: she performed ass licking of her clients, anal sex and oral sex without protection,
with one client while staying locked in leather and chains like a dog,
and with the other she wanted to have his sperm on her face and then to be hit
with banknotes by him - the payment for her prostitution sex acts.
57. She said she won't feel sorry when her parents will die.
58. She would complain daily very much about everything that surrounded her,
at her job, everywhere. She was requesting that I come with her everywhere,
"to protect her" (against other men that may rape her).
59. She imagined diseases of her leg, of her bladder, of her hormones, of her skin, that none of the doctors could find or treat, because all her "diseases" were imagined.
60. She was justifying that in her opinion life of humans is a mistake, that humans are some sort of cancer for the planet, and a "genetical mistake".
61. Each time I helped her, she was becoming more evil towards me.
Each time I was indifferent towards her, she would be warmer and try to get closer to me.
62. When she was angry (quite often) she told me: "Die in dirt!" , "I hope you die faster" , "Jump in front of train and die" , "If you love me, prove it by jumping in front of the train!", "Imagine how your mother is dying!" and other variations on the same absurd subjects that she enjoyed by herself, while I was only constantly surprised by the level of insanity contained.
I only very much recently realised that she was proud of the fact that she pushed a collegue girl to suicide when she was in highschool.
63. She never had made any savings, she used to spend in shopping sprees close to 1/3 of her salary or any money I would give her, on the first day of receiving.
64. Usuall sleeping schedule was 6am - 13pm, she was making herself strong teas just before going to bed, and the teine in the teas of course kept her awake,
but she was convinced that the tea before bed is a good idea, never making the connection between the teine and the impossibility of her falling asleep.
65. She would automatically impulsively assume the opposite position to whatever opinion I had and I told.
66. She was never wrong, and she never considered that she has done anything wrong. Even sex with clients of prostitutes, she regarded it as "just a fantasy
that I wanted to fulfill for a long time".
67. She was very easy to influence by whoever stayed close to her at that moment, and she was very easy to influence even against her own interests, by example she often signed contracts with others against her own interests.
68. In the late stages of the relationship, the moment that she made a request that I accepted, instantly she no longer wanted it only because I said yes to it