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The NPC meme
10-12-2018, 06:06 PM
I think what brought me to Game in the first place was dissatisfaction with the way my head worked and I'd never want to put it up as an example for others to follow. I'd go out and never speak to people, the typical beta observer on the wall. I was clearly out of sync with the world around me. I have fleeting moments of abstract mental flow but to be honest I'm probably talking to myself in my head most of the time. The dialog plays faster than reading or verbalizing sentences, with skipped words and whatnot, emotional thoughts are definitely less of a dialog than solving problems or making decisions. If you've ever 'typed faster than you think' and created a strange shorthand line, that might resemble something like my head dialog.
I aspire to get into a state like yours. I think the root of the problem is that I've lived my whole life suppressing gut instincts and second guessing myself, not unlike the way many boys are raised these days. I've somehow been trained to believe that my feelings are always wrong. Even after years of redpill I still haven't truly killed the beta infecting my mind, the fight rages on.
Sometimes the inner dialog is motivational things like 'here we go' or 'shake it off', often it is rehearsing future events or brooding over past ones, lots of fantasizing as well. 'ooh lets try that' or 'no thats a bad idea' when its time to make a decision. It isn't really like there is another person in there, the dialog comes across as a negotiation between my instincts, memory and calculations. There used to be a lot of negative self talk happening, I'd beat myself up with hindsight constantly. At some point during those dark depressed unemployed incel years I somehow concluded that I've got to stop being so mean to myself and be on my own team. I still catch myself doing it sometimes. Clearly something in my mind still holds a low self-value, otherwise I wouldn't have stuck with my latest shitty LTR for so long.
I don't think you can just flip a mental switch and become chad, my mental dialog is a lot healthier than it has been but it is still frustrating. My career puts me in a frustrating subservient people pleaser position which isn't good for it.
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The NPC meme
10-12-2018, 09:08 PM
They can't meme because they are not in touch with reality. Nor do they want to be.
And reality is funny and tragic, and tragedy is the root of all gut busting comedy. In fact most truly hilarious comedy is black, the Irish are extremely adept at it.
Pc's refuse to lie to ourselves about the state of the world or ourselves, saying things how they are is sad and yet damn funny in equal measure. It even provides comfort in bearing the world, which is often one of the reasons people live to laugh and tell jokes. Telling the truth. Revelling in it.
I want to laugh at how things ACTUALLY are. I want to be falling out of my seat, cheeks aching, tears down my face. Because I know it's true.
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The NPC meme
10-12-2018, 10:47 PM
For people who suffer from too much inner monologue which can affect things like socializing, sleeping and even approaching women I recommend meditation. Really helps keep it under control.
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The NPC meme
10-12-2018, 11:21 PM
Here's one I made:
Should it have worry eyebrows?
"A stripper last night brought up "Rich Dad Poor Dad" when I mentioned, "Think and Grow Rich""
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The NPC meme
10-13-2018, 12:09 AM
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The public will judge a man by what he lifts, but those close to him will judge him by what he carries.
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The NPC meme
10-13-2018, 02:04 AM
I first encountered the term NPC when I started playing Dungeons&Dragons, and Traveller, about the same time Brett Kavanagh was NOT running a gang rape ring.
Is like to play the old Infinity Engine title Ice Wind Dale. It's all very solipsistic as I use single player mode. Still, as you wander around the environs and mouse over NPCs it will show you their names. In 90% of the cases of the have a generic name like "Townperson" they are useless or at worst a waste of you time.
I'm not familiar with MMOGs and such: is it obvious when you encounter another human? Do you know who is a not and who is not?
Taking this IRL, so many people ae like bots. And the minority who are in a quest might work with you or against you.
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The NPC meme
10-13-2018, 06:48 AM
Just found out the significance of this meme
It is dark, unsettling..and very effective.
I can see why so many far leftists are offended by it. It displays them to a tee
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The NPC meme
10-13-2018, 07:41 AM
This meme is genius.
Leftists are not outraged that the meme dehumanises them; they are angry that it shines the light on the fact that they have dehumanised themselves. The realisation that for all of their slacktivism and 'original' revolutionary ideas they are nothing higher than Pavlov's dogs, screeching their 2 minutes hate at whatever target their masters ring the bell at.
As always, they will double down rather than wake up. Outrage.exe initialised.
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The NPC meme
10-13-2018, 08:24 AM
I have internal monologue to the point of obsession, I think its to much. Does any one else get alot of pain from it? Id love to know how I could have the thoughts but not feel the inherent pain that comes from thinking/seeing things that others dont.
Like the saying ignorance is bliss.