I'm having one of those days where I think back on my recent achievements and contemplate where I was a year ago, where I am now and how things have changed etc. You all know that that's like I assume.
When it comes to women I can't complain. A year ago I used to be in a long term relationship that made me miserable. I kept the relationship going because I was afraid I wouldn't be able to get anyone better than her. I knew about game back then, a practiced game, but I didn't have the right mindset. Anyway, I'll spare you the whole story of how I eventually dumped my girlfriend, worked on myself and my mindset and became more successful with women. I'm sure it's a story you've all heard one to many times and it's a story you've all experienced yourself in some way or form.
What I want to talk about it something I have noticed, or at least I think I have noticed. When I look back at all the women I've banged, they were all women who chose me. I banged them because they wanted me. I banged them because they decided it was going to happen. I banged them because I was their trophy. And I'm not just talking about the few women I've banged recently, but all women I've ever had sex with and/or had a relationship with.
Before you come with the whole "no shit, women are the gatekeepers to sex, we all know that" -speech, hear me out, because this is different.
Did you ever have this moment that you where either in a club or a public place or somewhere and you saw this chick and thought to yourself; "goddamn, this chick is awesome, I dig her, I want her in my bed and maybe even more than just that"? I'm sure we all have experienced that moment. And then you pursue her and you either end up fucking her or you get rejected.
I've pursued plenty of women in my life, and ALL, yes ALL of them rejected me. Whenever I pursue a women, I end up rejected, in the friendzone, or she just disappears completely. It ALLWAYS happens.
"But then how the hell can you claim you have had sex and relationships Mr. Calicoat? That doesn't make sense. You're probably just talking bullshit." I hear you saying.
No sir, I'm not talking bullshit. I indeed have had relationships and sex with various women. But as I said; they chose me before I chose them. These women I've had relationships and sex with, they already decided they wanted to date/have sex (with) me before I even was aware of their existence. These women actually approached me instead of me approaching them. And I was receptive and decided to play along with them, and either it ended up in just sex or I fell in love and then it ended with a relationship. Essentially you could say these women gamed me.
Jep, I feel that these women gamed me, not the other way around. And frankly when I came to this realization I got pissed off. Everytime I pursue a women she flakes. Every time I get laid it's because the women pursued me. What the fuck does this mean? What kind of reverse reality do I live in? I feel slightly angry now because I was under the illusion I was getting better with game and with women, but the sad reality is that I still get rejected 100% of the time whenever I am the one pursuing a chick, the only times I get laid is when the chick pursues me. And I do admit that the latter does happen more often these days, but still, it pisses me off. Why the fuck would I learn game if the only lays I get are from women who pursued me instead of the other way around?
Maybe I just need a good smack on the head from some veteran here to open my eyes and help me understand this shit, because I'm seriously at a loss right now.
So, any words of wisdom from the OGs here?
PS: I'm kinda depressed right now not just because of this but because I recently got my ass in the hospital on the intensive care because of alcohol and drug abuse. I fucked up majorly and I feel I'm all the way back to fucking zero.
When it comes to women I can't complain. A year ago I used to be in a long term relationship that made me miserable. I kept the relationship going because I was afraid I wouldn't be able to get anyone better than her. I knew about game back then, a practiced game, but I didn't have the right mindset. Anyway, I'll spare you the whole story of how I eventually dumped my girlfriend, worked on myself and my mindset and became more successful with women. I'm sure it's a story you've all heard one to many times and it's a story you've all experienced yourself in some way or form.
What I want to talk about it something I have noticed, or at least I think I have noticed. When I look back at all the women I've banged, they were all women who chose me. I banged them because they wanted me. I banged them because they decided it was going to happen. I banged them because I was their trophy. And I'm not just talking about the few women I've banged recently, but all women I've ever had sex with and/or had a relationship with.
Before you come with the whole "no shit, women are the gatekeepers to sex, we all know that" -speech, hear me out, because this is different.
Did you ever have this moment that you where either in a club or a public place or somewhere and you saw this chick and thought to yourself; "goddamn, this chick is awesome, I dig her, I want her in my bed and maybe even more than just that"? I'm sure we all have experienced that moment. And then you pursue her and you either end up fucking her or you get rejected.
I've pursued plenty of women in my life, and ALL, yes ALL of them rejected me. Whenever I pursue a women, I end up rejected, in the friendzone, or she just disappears completely. It ALLWAYS happens.
"But then how the hell can you claim you have had sex and relationships Mr. Calicoat? That doesn't make sense. You're probably just talking bullshit." I hear you saying.
No sir, I'm not talking bullshit. I indeed have had relationships and sex with various women. But as I said; they chose me before I chose them. These women I've had relationships and sex with, they already decided they wanted to date/have sex (with) me before I even was aware of their existence. These women actually approached me instead of me approaching them. And I was receptive and decided to play along with them, and either it ended up in just sex or I fell in love and then it ended with a relationship. Essentially you could say these women gamed me.
Jep, I feel that these women gamed me, not the other way around. And frankly when I came to this realization I got pissed off. Everytime I pursue a women she flakes. Every time I get laid it's because the women pursued me. What the fuck does this mean? What kind of reverse reality do I live in? I feel slightly angry now because I was under the illusion I was getting better with game and with women, but the sad reality is that I still get rejected 100% of the time whenever I am the one pursuing a chick, the only times I get laid is when the chick pursues me. And I do admit that the latter does happen more often these days, but still, it pisses me off. Why the fuck would I learn game if the only lays I get are from women who pursued me instead of the other way around?
Maybe I just need a good smack on the head from some veteran here to open my eyes and help me understand this shit, because I'm seriously at a loss right now.
So, any words of wisdom from the OGs here?
PS: I'm kinda depressed right now not just because of this but because I recently got my ass in the hospital on the intensive care because of alcohol and drug abuse. I fucked up majorly and I feel I'm all the way back to fucking zero.