I've been in university for two weeks. Feels like I've been here for a year, which partly means I'm slowing down a bit, which isn't a good thing. I followed Mark Manson's Approach Program earnestly for the first week, but started being more meek when the actual approaching and talking to girls started.
I approached a handful of girls and tried holding short conversations. Today I met one of the girls I approached the first day, she's in psychology and we talked about that for a while. We spent over 2 hours together waiting for this big Bollywood movie star who came to our university today to promote his new movie (Akshay Kumar, for those who're aware... Jacqueline Fernandez and Siddharth Malhotra were with him too).
We didn't get to see him through the crowd though, it went batshit crazy right as he walked in. I saw some videos of him later.
I then had dinner at the mess with her and a few of her friends. They were talking in Hindi, and me not being that good at it made it difficult to stay with what they were saying most of the time. I see guys who're definitely much less attractive than I am with pretty girls on campus quite frequently, but I'm very withdrawn, and despite being Indian don't know how to fit in, which is seriously debilitating. Maybe I'll learn how to be attractive without fitting in, but right now I am where I am... an alien to Indian culture who sometimes comes off as being pretentious.
I also felt like I had to be cool all the time and impress her with something, I tried telling myself that this is exactly the kind of needy behaviour I need to learn how to overcome, but the loudness of my subconscious's anxiety drowned out my inner monologue most of the time.
Nothing happened, I don't know how to move forward, but she's definitely into me. It felt kind of weird because her friends were with us and I just know that they were talking about it behind our backs.
But anyway, today evening felt good and I'll start approaching girls with re-kindled vigour again.
I approached a handful of girls and tried holding short conversations. Today I met one of the girls I approached the first day, she's in psychology and we talked about that for a while. We spent over 2 hours together waiting for this big Bollywood movie star who came to our university today to promote his new movie (Akshay Kumar, for those who're aware... Jacqueline Fernandez and Siddharth Malhotra were with him too).
We didn't get to see him through the crowd though, it went batshit crazy right as he walked in. I saw some videos of him later.
I then had dinner at the mess with her and a few of her friends. They were talking in Hindi, and me not being that good at it made it difficult to stay with what they were saying most of the time. I see guys who're definitely much less attractive than I am with pretty girls on campus quite frequently, but I'm very withdrawn, and despite being Indian don't know how to fit in, which is seriously debilitating. Maybe I'll learn how to be attractive without fitting in, but right now I am where I am... an alien to Indian culture who sometimes comes off as being pretentious.
I also felt like I had to be cool all the time and impress her with something, I tried telling myself that this is exactly the kind of needy behaviour I need to learn how to overcome, but the loudness of my subconscious's anxiety drowned out my inner monologue most of the time.
Nothing happened, I don't know how to move forward, but she's definitely into me. It felt kind of weird because her friends were with us and I just know that they were talking about it behind our backs.
But anyway, today evening felt good and I'll start approaching girls with re-kindled vigour again.