Quote: (07-27-2017 07:49 PM)RatInTheWoods Wrote:
Don't buy into the bullshit that you are what you own.
Money is not your self worth.
You had money before, you can get it again.
Focus on who you are, your values and get back to hard work to make your way in the world.
Thanks Rat, my buddy said the same thing. He offered a few books to read on financial mindset and the like. It's just like girls or weightlifting or anything else, mindset is the foundation which you build upon.
It's not that I feel unworthy or have low self-esteem, but I do not believe I can make money, or become rich. It's probably years of feedback, but I must break this cycle.
Quote: (07-30-2017 08:28 AM)renotime Wrote:
Poker players go broke all the time. I had a buddy that built up his roll to 2MM at Commerce, lost it all, borrowed from a friend and built it back up to 2MM, lost 1.5 of it back and then quit.
If I were in your shoes I'd try to borrow from a poker friend and build my roll back up. If the games are still good in your area you should be able to build your roll back up.
You can lose a or make a lot of money quickly in PLO, as I'm sure you know. Stick to playing in good games and practicing proper bankroll management.
If you play poker and do FBA on the side you won't have to take any money out of the amazon business and it will grow a lot faster.
Games are okay, not great not bad. I am not the type of sick degenerate who can go on huge swings because of my play style. I play a fairly low variance style so these types of swings shouldn't happen that often.
Good bankroll management would be borrowing 25k from a friend and praying to God I run good at PLO. This is not a sustainable long term strategy, I am not good enough or bold enough to put myself or my friend at that kind of risk.
I am mentally exhausted from the swings and want to build something more solid going forward. I don't think I want to be a professional degenerate hedonist well into my 30's. A dealer told me about a house game he dealt at, 90k on the table he got called in after they had played for 28 hours. He dealt for 9 hours and they still continued. A lot of these regulars have families and stuff, and some of them just younger guys like me. But even if I got to the level of skill/bankroll I think I'd be happier doing other things.
All in all, I really appreciate everyone's input on these threads. It's given me a lot to think about and I can see a few paths I could realistically take going forward.