Hello, guys. I've been a lurker on this forum for about two years, and decided it was time to join (I joined a few months back but totally forgot about it until I was researching something on here again).
In this post I want to share my current situation in life and get some general advice about everything from girls to money.
I'm eighteen years old, 6'2" white man with blonde hair and blue eyes weighing 230 lb.
I was pretty isolated my whole life, being homeschooled with no friends in my area. I did well in high school, graduating with a 3.92 GPA. Fall of this year, I attended a large Southern state school to study Information Technology, and expectations were pretty high for me. I ended up getting swept up in the party scene pretty early, joined a fraternity, got blackballed, and spent the rest of the semester getting stoned, drunk and abusing opiates every day totally ignoring my studies. I bullshitted depression symptoms to the school health center and got put on Zoloft. I left school with a 0.0 gpa for Christmas break back to my strict parents house, struggling hard with Zoloft, nicotine, and Vicodin withdrawal. A few days after I got back I got a letter saying I was suspended. Can't say I was too devastated by it. I never really even wanted to go to college in the first place. A few days later, I landed a construction job with my old Youth Pastor making 10 dollars an hour working full time. That job starts the first week in January.
As for my love life... I lost my virginity in college. It was a pretty weird story actually. It was late at night, and I was having a cigarette outside my dorm room when a drunk chick (6.5) stumbled up to me and asked to bum one. We ended up smoking the rest of the pack and she asked if I could take her up to my room. she laid down on my bed and things went from there, until my roommate walked in on us. Second girl I banged I met at a tailgate party (5.5). I banged her three times. Also, since I was in college, I've made out with 4 girls other than the ones I banged, one was my highschool girlfriend who I met online (6), one was a chick I rode to a concert with (6.5), one was a landwhale at a house party (3.5), and the other one was my pledge brother's date at a fraternity function (8). Because of my social isolation during most of my teen years, people say I sometimes have a serial killer vibe which works out in my favor on some girls. In fact, I was able to use one of Roosh's "I left my axe at home" lines on two girls. Anyway, it seems like I have little issue attracting average looking girls (6.5 and under), but I really only want to focus on 7's and above. I feel like shit whenever I have romantic contact with girls that aren't up to my personal standards.
Some info on my personal situation: I haven't had sex in several months, and really don't have that much of a desire to go on the hunt again. I'm more interested in pursuing my personal self-improvement and becoming independent of my parents. Right now I'm living at home, and my parents are charging me rent. I don't have a car, but I really want to get one ASAP (since I live in the South, work construction, and like off-roading, I want a used pickup). I feel like shit physically since I'm still in withdrawal and my parents don't let me smoke. I'm also a bit overweight, but dealing with that is not my first priority right now.
Basically, I really just want your guys' advice on how to move forward with my life. If you have any questions, I'll be happy to answer.
In this post I want to share my current situation in life and get some general advice about everything from girls to money.
I'm eighteen years old, 6'2" white man with blonde hair and blue eyes weighing 230 lb.
I was pretty isolated my whole life, being homeschooled with no friends in my area. I did well in high school, graduating with a 3.92 GPA. Fall of this year, I attended a large Southern state school to study Information Technology, and expectations were pretty high for me. I ended up getting swept up in the party scene pretty early, joined a fraternity, got blackballed, and spent the rest of the semester getting stoned, drunk and abusing opiates every day totally ignoring my studies. I bullshitted depression symptoms to the school health center and got put on Zoloft. I left school with a 0.0 gpa for Christmas break back to my strict parents house, struggling hard with Zoloft, nicotine, and Vicodin withdrawal. A few days after I got back I got a letter saying I was suspended. Can't say I was too devastated by it. I never really even wanted to go to college in the first place. A few days later, I landed a construction job with my old Youth Pastor making 10 dollars an hour working full time. That job starts the first week in January.
As for my love life... I lost my virginity in college. It was a pretty weird story actually. It was late at night, and I was having a cigarette outside my dorm room when a drunk chick (6.5) stumbled up to me and asked to bum one. We ended up smoking the rest of the pack and she asked if I could take her up to my room. she laid down on my bed and things went from there, until my roommate walked in on us. Second girl I banged I met at a tailgate party (5.5). I banged her three times. Also, since I was in college, I've made out with 4 girls other than the ones I banged, one was my highschool girlfriend who I met online (6), one was a chick I rode to a concert with (6.5), one was a landwhale at a house party (3.5), and the other one was my pledge brother's date at a fraternity function (8). Because of my social isolation during most of my teen years, people say I sometimes have a serial killer vibe which works out in my favor on some girls. In fact, I was able to use one of Roosh's "I left my axe at home" lines on two girls. Anyway, it seems like I have little issue attracting average looking girls (6.5 and under), but I really only want to focus on 7's and above. I feel like shit whenever I have romantic contact with girls that aren't up to my personal standards.
Some info on my personal situation: I haven't had sex in several months, and really don't have that much of a desire to go on the hunt again. I'm more interested in pursuing my personal self-improvement and becoming independent of my parents. Right now I'm living at home, and my parents are charging me rent. I don't have a car, but I really want to get one ASAP (since I live in the South, work construction, and like off-roading, I want a used pickup). I feel like shit physically since I'm still in withdrawal and my parents don't let me smoke. I'm also a bit overweight, but dealing with that is not my first priority right now.
Basically, I really just want your guys' advice on how to move forward with my life. If you have any questions, I'll be happy to answer.