Hi Everyone,
I hope to see what everyone else thought of this situation, as well as if I just have a skewed view or am pursuing the wrong thing in life. Any feedback is appreciated as I try to figure everything out.
I have no friends who I would disclose any personal information with. In the past I have found that when I disclose too much, or seem too emotional/needy, people stop listening or I gain some sort of invisible stigma. Plus, no one really cares. People like me when I am sunshine and butterflies. There can't actually be anything wrong in my life or I start emitting comic book stink lines.
I can't talk to my only parent and family, my mom for very good reasons. I don't really want to critique her but when I try sharing something, I may as well be talking to wall. I'm actually better off since the wall cannot remember the vulnerabilities and toss them back at me later.
Maybe this combination has led me to seek a personal connection with some sort of significant other in the past. I thought I found a person I was able to do that with at one point but she would keep a good amount of her emotions from me. In the end, I exposed my vulnerabilities and once that was out she was done with me. I don't see me going down this route again since it was very difficult that I invested so much in this and ultimately it fell apart despite me giving it my all.
I didn't get into too much detail with any of the above scenarios but I honestly think we are social animals. We need some sort of connection with someone. We all have these shortcomings that would be nice to be able to express since we are conditioned to present our best to the world.
Am I being too needy here? Do any of you simply keep everything to yourself? If not, am I looking in all the wrong places? I'm feeling my mental health degraded without some sort of connection with someone.
Let me know what you think or if you have any questions.
I hope to see what everyone else thought of this situation, as well as if I just have a skewed view or am pursuing the wrong thing in life. Any feedback is appreciated as I try to figure everything out.
I have no friends who I would disclose any personal information with. In the past I have found that when I disclose too much, or seem too emotional/needy, people stop listening or I gain some sort of invisible stigma. Plus, no one really cares. People like me when I am sunshine and butterflies. There can't actually be anything wrong in my life or I start emitting comic book stink lines.
I can't talk to my only parent and family, my mom for very good reasons. I don't really want to critique her but when I try sharing something, I may as well be talking to wall. I'm actually better off since the wall cannot remember the vulnerabilities and toss them back at me later.
Maybe this combination has led me to seek a personal connection with some sort of significant other in the past. I thought I found a person I was able to do that with at one point but she would keep a good amount of her emotions from me. In the end, I exposed my vulnerabilities and once that was out she was done with me. I don't see me going down this route again since it was very difficult that I invested so much in this and ultimately it fell apart despite me giving it my all.
I didn't get into too much detail with any of the above scenarios but I honestly think we are social animals. We need some sort of connection with someone. We all have these shortcomings that would be nice to be able to express since we are conditioned to present our best to the world.
Am I being too needy here? Do any of you simply keep everything to yourself? If not, am I looking in all the wrong places? I'm feeling my mental health degraded without some sort of connection with someone.
Let me know what you think or if you have any questions.