I was Lurking and found this bumped, so I guess an update is past overdue.
Now have a notch count of 48 vs the 6 I had when I made this thread.
Leveraging my job at the hotel to fuck tourists outside of work is going pretty smooth. my manager is probably on to me about what's going down but wont fire me that easily, because he gets his palms greased to let off some weed to guests, I guess you could say everybody has their mini hustle and taking on a new employee is too risky.
Business wise I have launched a consulting hustle as a means to generate capital, I make an avg of 5k a month with a goal of 25k this would be higher if I was on US soil. Eventually I will apply for a visa and explore the US a bit , I know I could clean up pretty easy with my hustle.
Speaking quite frankly, My experience with porn addiction wasn't an easily kicked habit, I suffered tremors and night sweats at the peak of my deprivation (6 1/2 weeks in) all I could think of was fucking and knew something had to give.
I think 4 days in "attempting" day game, I saw a chick (7th notch) in the supermarket undecided on what brand toilet paper to buy, I made up some bs about bacteria with one brand vs the other then got the number , met later that night at a popular bar, had some decent conversation and thats when it started coming back to me where I actually felt some happiness and but I knew I couldn't get lost in this.
Signaled the bartender to make her drinks stronger than mine to speed the night up because I wanted to fuck asap.
Got her back to my place and she knew what was up and told me she doesn't fuck on first date but I was gonna fuck one way or the other.
At that moment internally I felt I had to fuck or something was gonna snap.
She resisted my initial attempts towards the bedroom but my lurking paid off I threw on the news(hid the remote), got her to play some pool with shots.
Later on made out for a bit , felt the pussy...wet as fuck got the bang.
After that experience, either lots of stuff got rebalanced internally or I got my mojo back, I am not sure what it is but it felt great. I think this Bruce lee quote sums it up.
“If you always put limit on everything you do, physical or anything else. I
t will spread into your work and into your life. There are no limits. There are only plateaus, and you must not stay there, you must go beyond them.” – Bruce Lee
I had allowed a seed of negativity to grow and spread from my insecurities with women to everything else in my life.
Still lots more areas to improve on but these last 2 months have been fantastic