Sounds like you went through the exact same stages most of us did. You are on the right track. Take what wastelander said to heart. He was spot fucking on. Keep studying and reading. Don't turn into a mgtow. That's unnecessary.
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1 John 4:20 - If anyone says, I love God, and hates (detests, abominates) his brother [in Christ], he is a liar; for he who does not love his brother, whom he has seen, cannot love God, Whom he has not seen.