Player's Log / Lounge
03-11-2019, 12:43 AM
Been awhile since I posted in this thread, since mid January it looks like.
Not much new activity because of the following:
Girl Wise:
-Deleted all my dating apps almost 3 months ago
-No more new dates & less drinking/partying
-Not going out as much - spending less
-Still get an occasional number here and there
-I've got 7 girls in my rotation, 2 are gone - more on this later
Self Wise:
-More focused than ever on diet and workouts
-Introduction of Yoga for back issues (backs becoming a bigger issue)
-More focused on saving money for a property and a newer car
-The extra hours I put into my work are finally producing
Now onto the girls in the rotation:
East Coaster- been banging her for about a year, she's pretty cool, one of the freakiest of the girls, no drama none of the "what are we talk", she graduated recently and about to pass her boards, odds are she'll probably move back home to the east coast
MILF Cougar - been banging her for about a year and a half - she's low maintenance, probably have the best sexual chemistry with her, took her anal virginity, and always have great sex but gets pissy if I don't give her attention - but I take her out once in awhile and she's fine. It works out perfect cause we're both busy, we know exactly what we're doing.
Triple D Red Head - been banging her for 2.5 years, she's a super sweet shy girl with body that just makes me want to nut in her. Very low maintenance, no "what are we talk", she's also busy with school and a new promotion.
Short Feisty Chick - been banging her for 1.5 years, we stopped banging in October, then early February she hits me up, she dumps her boyfriend the day after she texts me (that's cold lol) and we start fucking again.
Just this Thursday she basically gave me the "you just fuck me/use me for sex", she wants to be loved and appreciated by someone - I talked her down, she knows I don't use her, appreciates me being around for so long, understands I don't have time for a girlfriend, I took her out for lunch today, we ended lunch on a good note - we'll definitely bang again
Black Former Cheerleader- been banging for 6 months, the first few times we banged was a bit weird, I've worked her on positions and flexibility and she's alot better, she loves me dicking her down, took her anal virginity recently the only issue she's a bit skitting with the "what are we" - it boils down to us going out occasionally and making her feel like more than just a fuck buddy, not hard to do.
MILF Trainer - we've been banging on and off for 3 years, she ended things in last June cause she wanted more and I didn't, she hit me back up in late January this year, allegedly she "never goes out" and wanted a night to meet up, we banged lat January and have been talking every since, haven't banged since, she was on her way to see me last weekend but got in accident so that's on hold - odds are we'll bang again a few times and she'll have the "what are we" question. This girl is pretty but she's a weird on for sure.
Weird Girl - We've been banging for about 6 months - she's definitely a weird one, but has a nice ass with an even nicer pussy, constantly double/triple texts me, I literally give one word answers sometimes, she's kinda mediocre personality but easy going so I'm rolling with it.
ex Tiny Cheerleader - we banged for 2 months, she basically caught feelings and said I was basically emotionally unavailable and ended things at the end of December. She was one of those tiny girls with a super nice pussy that you want to dump loads in and she was athletic. Thing is she had alot of red flags including sexual abuse so I knew it was going much of anywhere.
She hit me back in mid February and we met up once in late Feb at a local bar - as much as I wanted to fuck her, she just sounded dumb and annoying - I cut the date short. We schedule a date 2 weeks ago but she bailed with some weak excuse and never responded to my question - never followed up with her.
I'm gonna leave that as is.
ex Latina - we were seeing eachother for about 2 months before the holidays
My latina I just talked about checked off alot of boxes:
-Early 20's
-I'm the second guy she had sex with (allegedly)
-Good family
-Good relationship with family
-Has her shit together
-Religious
-Great sex, nice pussy, great head, etc
-Dislike social media
-Always complimenting and touching me
Everything I wanted, I was already visualizing our relationship (I'm exaggerating but you get the picture)
Yet she had emotional/physical abuse done to her by her first boyfriend, and all I wanted to do is hug her and tell her it's okay and told her to talk to me about and keep an open line of communication. She tells me she's gonna seek professional because she finally told someone who wasn't her best friend.
Two weeks later after an amazing weekend together, out of the blue her she texts me that she doesn't want to see me again, she has too much stress in her life and her PTSD allegedly come roaring back.
I honestly think the excuses were BS, she just realized things were moving fast and we were burning hot for eachother, she probably got scared.
She did me a favor because of the red flags I ignored that she knew I saw.
ex Hottie Indian - we've been banging for 4 years and she has a great body, nice ass, she'd be GF material if she didn't have some serious issues from sexual abuse and depression.
Everything came to a head today - she basically hit me with wanting to make things serious with me.
A little background - she's in love with me, in the last year she caught alot of feelings for me and I stayed the same and kept things real with her. She told me I was just a fuck buddy at the beginning and things changed through the 4 years she's known me.
She came over today after I had lunch with the short feisty girl.
She caught me up on her vacation and what's new (we haven't seen eachother in month because of our schedules) - we had a really great fuck session. (I'm glad we fucked before so I was thinking clearly)
We finally started talking about her point of view and her thoughts about us.
Turns out what triggered this conversation is a new guy in her life she's talking to, but she felt guilty talking to a new guy because she has very strong emotions for me.
I basically told her I've never asked her what she does or her business, I told her it's a non issue, and it's the same way with me, and it doesn't matter
She started crying between laughs because she told me this feels like a break up, and I told her it definitely is a break up and that it's okay, she should be selfish she should pursue a serious relationship, and that she deserves it
I can't give it to her, and I don't know what I want, I'm more focused on getting a new property, getting money, getting a new car, and taking care of my body
I like enjoying what we currently have and she wants more, I can't give her that.
She mentioned the "still be friends", I laughed and told her "you and I both know it's not possible"
If she's talking to a guy, that she shouldn't be talking to me, it's not fair to him, her, or I, but if she isn't talking to any dudes and wants to hang, go on a date or bang, my door is always open.
Other than that, she cried a bit more, she said this was the easiest/cleanest break up she had, all the other guys were bad
I told her straight up, it's all good, she'll survive
She said it's going to be hard, she's emotionally attached to me, that I helped her grow throughout the years, and I told her I get I'm a pretty awesome dude.
I told her eventually she's gotta get dressed and leave, walked her out, reiterated that she needs to have a clean break with me, if things change or dudes aren't in the picture she can definitely hit me up.
That's that, we had a good 4 year run, ended it on the best of terms.
The player in me is still there, but I'm becoming more genuine with intentions and honesty with women - I just don't got time for BS nowadays and even my last few dates I cut short or made intentions known.
It's obvious my dating life has slowed down and my personal life has picked up.
I've obviously noticed I'm running every single girl through potential GF filters lately but yet I don't got time for it.
I still take every advantage of free time I have to approach girls or use social circles for leverage and I might hope on Bumble or Hinge again but as you guys can tell from this forum, online game quality has deteriorated and male attention has increased.
We'll see what this summer brings.