The life of a 27y, living with mom, huge failure, is it even possible to fix?
12-31-2015, 09:15 PM
Alright guys, seems like my account got suspended for a week due to my earlier aggressive outburst lol, anyway Im back.
New years eve, spent all day and night by myself, no invites to parties, three "happy new year" in my phone (from relatives), basicly my current social life is as bad as it has ever been. My social life at 20 was better, my social life at 18 was better, hell my social life at 10 was better, MUCH better.
Its time to fix this, I cannot fucking stand it no more, Im wasting my time walking around having the self image of a friendless loser (true) when I look good, jacked and like Im "one of the popular ones", holy fuck is this weird.
Anyway, Ive decided to go back to university, 8 months from now. I will be studying for 3 years, adding 1 year of .. what do you call it in english, "practise" at a workplace within my study field? All in all 4 years total, so I will basicly be 28 when I enter university again, and I will be 32 when I get my exam.
Even tho It is very common for scandinavians to "restart their career" nearing their 30s - so I will have plenty of peeps my own age there - the majority will ofcourse be people in their early twenties. Im not quite sure If this is of an advantage or not for me, what do you guys think, regarding the girls, are 19-23 year old girls easier as an somewhat "older guy", or is it more difficult?
Anyway, basicly I will be a college student again, including the whole package of a college-lifetyle. Parties, socialising and other activities. I did go to college before, as I mentioned it my opening post, however those 2 years went by fast with me basicly sitting in my room doing nothing but playing games with just the occasionaly once in a full moon party, so I have never really lived the college experience: This means I need to gather knowledge how to go about building up a good social network with friends and girls as effectively as possible making my college years worth to remember, Im open to all kinds of tips regarding this.
I will also join a martial arts "dojo" in my new town, most likely Judo (which I excelled in as a kid) or just pure MMA, I havent decided yet.
I took some time to look up the martial arts club near my current home, but they only accepted newbies 2 times a year - november and june, so I will have to take it up at the same time as I start my studies in the new town.
Some random goals I came up with this week:
1. Start meditating every day for 20 minutes, this seem to calm my mind and make me more present in the interaction with others.
2. Start a PE routine (penis enchantment?), basicly I want to have a bigger cock, cause it would feel fucking powerful, I think Im gonna order one of these "bathmates" which Ive read great reviews on, but also do a jelq routine for 10-20mins 4-5 times a week.
3. Im actually considering doing my very first steroid cycle this year, probably a simple low dose of testosterone for 10-12 weeks to try it out. Im basicly very very close to my natural potential when it comes to muscle and strenght gains at this point after all these years of VERY HARD workouts. Im nearing 300kg i deadlift and 200kg in benchpress, a newbie steroid cycle will probably put me above these numbers, so that would be awesome.
Im not quite sure how I gonna go about the "girl problem" - I dont want to enter university feeling like a fucking virgin again, given I havent had sex with a new girl for years. So I would really need to boost my sexual confidence and experiences. Would you recommend any certain kind of game litterature? Ive studied some Real Social Dynamics, but to be honest they just make me confused and seem to give contradicting advice all day every day.
I would also need some friends, I feel fucking lonely but Its damn hard making "new friends" where I live now, a very small place and Its kind of like the social groups have already formed and people arent really that "open" for new guys it seems.
Oh and by the way, my mom told me she can lend me money for the first three months of rent If I find an apartment, so now I just have to be on the look out for available places to live. Hopefully I will get a place of my own the coming months, that would be great.
All help regarding game/college life/how-to-go-about-this-girl-situation is highly appreciated!
Happy new year by the way, best wishes for 2016.