Flashback 2018, i meet a girl, we chat a bit, we decide to hang out, we go on a date have fun, plan 2nd date. She comes over, we watch a movie and start making out. Dick rock hard throughout the whole thing. She takes off her clothes and i take off mine and my dick instantly falls down. It won't get back up. My first time ever having performance anxiety, i panic and don't know how to handle it, so i lose frame and act like a pussy resulting in losing this girl.
Fine... i learned from my mistake that it is in fact normal, and it does happen sometimes when you're nervous. Current state: No sex, dry spell since 2017, with the first girlfriend, also the girlfriend who took my virginity. Now fast forward 2 years to 2019.
Game improved a lot, frame improved, life quality improved. Meet cute girl, hit it off really well, literally share so much in common, fall for this girl. End up going on multiple dates. Date 3, she comes over, we cook food together, watch a movie and decide to have sex. This girl is literally amazing, most beautiful girl i've ever dated. Dick rock hard when she just smiles at me and even harder when we make out. We start foreplay, i finger her, go down on her, she pulls my pants down and my dick literally falls down 50%. She tries to give me a blowjob to save it, but it keeps going down. Fuck... it happened again. But this time i was a bit more prepared so i didn't panic or act stupid, but i could see she was quite disappointed. She definitely expected sex that night. I tell her it happened before and that we should try another time. Time passes and she gets busy with life forgetting about me. I hit her up and she seems to have lost interest. What a shame. Thinking this girl is the one, falling for the blue pill ideology that there is a one, lesson learned. AWALT.
I move on within 2 weeks and meet another girl. She's not quite as beautiful, i'd give her a 5-6/10 in the face but her body is amazing. It's an 8. This one seems more promiscuous and i decide to invite her over straight to my apartment for our first "date". This time i was prepared so i took 20 mg cialis. We cook, talk, and then we try to have sex. My dick seems to be working up until the moment i have to perform. No way, not again. Twice in 2 weeks. What's wrong with me? I decided to play it super cool and she doesn't seem to mind, she's experienced and happened to her a few times before she told me. This time not losing the girl i decide to just give her an orgasm, i went down on her and fingered her and she literally came 3 times. She's like wow where did you learn to do that? I've never come so easy before. We chill for a bit, my dick still not working and i tell her i have to get up early next morning so we say goodbye. She kisses me goodbye.
Im thinking, hmm i don't know if i lost this girl or not, it's 50/50, but to my surprise, she messages me saying she had a great time and we should do it again next week. I say sure. The first time we met i was a little bit nervous, but nothing crazy. Like my mind was relaxed and ready but my dick wasn't. So we met up again this weekend and had plenty of time. I thought, cool we can fuck all night long, but again my dick wouldn't get hard when i had to perform. I wasn't even nervous this time around, what is wrong with me. I had even taken cialis again, 20 mg. But nope, same shit again. I made her cum again a few times and we just chilled and she slept over. I told her i haven't had sex since 2017, might be why my dick isn't working. Not really nervous, but my dick is. She was very understanding. I told her, i understand if you don't want to chill again, you come over for sex and get nothing, it must suck. She told me it's literally fine and she enjoys my company, she's not just here for the sex. She told me we could try again next weekend, and im anxious as fuck if this happens a 3rd time. I would feel so fucking bad.
My test levels are above average, 862 ng/dl, i work out 5 times a week, eat healthy, often have boners in the morning, no stress, sleep 7-8 hours a day, no fap, no porn. So im thinking this problem must be psychological. I seriously need help and advice because if this happens for a 3rd time i highly doubt this girl will stick around any longer. Am i not getting hard because of the fact that this girl literally isn't turning me on? I've never done sex without feelings, might this be the reason why my body is acting like this? Could i be because im too much in my head above how quick i will bust a nut? Could it be that i feel guilty for having sex casually because of previous morals? Because of previously religious upbringing? What could it be?
Fine... i learned from my mistake that it is in fact normal, and it does happen sometimes when you're nervous. Current state: No sex, dry spell since 2017, with the first girlfriend, also the girlfriend who took my virginity. Now fast forward 2 years to 2019.
Game improved a lot, frame improved, life quality improved. Meet cute girl, hit it off really well, literally share so much in common, fall for this girl. End up going on multiple dates. Date 3, she comes over, we cook food together, watch a movie and decide to have sex. This girl is literally amazing, most beautiful girl i've ever dated. Dick rock hard when she just smiles at me and even harder when we make out. We start foreplay, i finger her, go down on her, she pulls my pants down and my dick literally falls down 50%. She tries to give me a blowjob to save it, but it keeps going down. Fuck... it happened again. But this time i was a bit more prepared so i didn't panic or act stupid, but i could see she was quite disappointed. She definitely expected sex that night. I tell her it happened before and that we should try another time. Time passes and she gets busy with life forgetting about me. I hit her up and she seems to have lost interest. What a shame. Thinking this girl is the one, falling for the blue pill ideology that there is a one, lesson learned. AWALT.
I move on within 2 weeks and meet another girl. She's not quite as beautiful, i'd give her a 5-6/10 in the face but her body is amazing. It's an 8. This one seems more promiscuous and i decide to invite her over straight to my apartment for our first "date". This time i was prepared so i took 20 mg cialis. We cook, talk, and then we try to have sex. My dick seems to be working up until the moment i have to perform. No way, not again. Twice in 2 weeks. What's wrong with me? I decided to play it super cool and she doesn't seem to mind, she's experienced and happened to her a few times before she told me. This time not losing the girl i decide to just give her an orgasm, i went down on her and fingered her and she literally came 3 times. She's like wow where did you learn to do that? I've never come so easy before. We chill for a bit, my dick still not working and i tell her i have to get up early next morning so we say goodbye. She kisses me goodbye.
Im thinking, hmm i don't know if i lost this girl or not, it's 50/50, but to my surprise, she messages me saying she had a great time and we should do it again next week. I say sure. The first time we met i was a little bit nervous, but nothing crazy. Like my mind was relaxed and ready but my dick wasn't. So we met up again this weekend and had plenty of time. I thought, cool we can fuck all night long, but again my dick wouldn't get hard when i had to perform. I wasn't even nervous this time around, what is wrong with me. I had even taken cialis again, 20 mg. But nope, same shit again. I made her cum again a few times and we just chilled and she slept over. I told her i haven't had sex since 2017, might be why my dick isn't working. Not really nervous, but my dick is. She was very understanding. I told her, i understand if you don't want to chill again, you come over for sex and get nothing, it must suck. She told me it's literally fine and she enjoys my company, she's not just here for the sex. She told me we could try again next weekend, and im anxious as fuck if this happens a 3rd time. I would feel so fucking bad.
My test levels are above average, 862 ng/dl, i work out 5 times a week, eat healthy, often have boners in the morning, no stress, sleep 7-8 hours a day, no fap, no porn. So im thinking this problem must be psychological. I seriously need help and advice because if this happens for a 3rd time i highly doubt this girl will stick around any longer. Am i not getting hard because of the fact that this girl literally isn't turning me on? I've never done sex without feelings, might this be the reason why my body is acting like this? Could i be because im too much in my head above how quick i will bust a nut? Could it be that i feel guilty for having sex casually because of previous morals? Because of previously religious upbringing? What could it be?