Hey man
First of all I appreciate you sharing your story, however you've received (and will receive) quite a few negative responses because most people here don't really want to read paragraphs upon paragraphs detailing your awkwardness with women and confidence issues. Because of the dramatic title, I see that some people didn't even read your post and assumed you were planning a m@ss sh00ting or something. I'll confess that even I skimmed through many parts, even though I'm generally interested in your story.
Secondly, if you're looking for sympathy you won't get it here. Here, people want to solve problems, and it's not entirely clear what your problems are (or if it is clear, it's buried under mountains of text). You said at one point, "where do I go from here?", and that's a very vague question which ultimately you have to decide. People on this forum can guide you down a certain path, but you have to choose which path. My only guidance is please don't give up. Coming here is a good step, and if you tell us specifically what you're doing to better yourself, or what you're struggling with, people will be more willing and able to help you.
It's not clear what your progress with daygame is. You say you've been approaching since April with little success. Tell us a bit more about your typical approach. Where do you do it? Do you approach women who are alone or groups? What age do you go for? What kind of things do you say? How do interactions typically end? Have you got any numbers? Perhaps start a journal on a separate thread.
I'm still relatively new to daygame but some good advice, if you're socially awkward and/or anxious, is to get used to talking to strangers in general. I have been trying this - starting conversations with strangers without intending to "game", just to get comfortable with chatting to random people. The following infographic really helps. It can feel very hard to apply this "D-pad" method in real life, because you might be nervous and find it hard to think of things which are more specific, more broad, or tangentially related, but the more you practise the better you'll get (I'm seeing improvements already), and hopefully there will come a time when I (and you!) can just do it without thinking. Roosh mentions "conversational bait" in his books Day Bang and Game, I recommend getting those 2 books if you can. Some others have mentioned How to Win Friends and Influence People, I recommend that too.
Infographic link: https://i.imgur.com/pqyEYax.jpg (I didn't attach the image because it was so huge)
If the link doesn't work, google search "Conversational D-Pad"
Finally, make sure you're taking action every day to somehow better yourself. If you're not approaching, you're reading a useful book. If you're not reading, you're watching something interesting on TV, something which either gives you something interesting to talk about (a documentary for example), or something which shows you how normal/likeable people interact (Roosh recommends Seinfeld, lol). Ever heard the phrase, "Knowing is half the battle"? That's true, it's only half the battle. Taking action is the ESSENTIAL other half, so go do it.
First of all I appreciate you sharing your story, however you've received (and will receive) quite a few negative responses because most people here don't really want to read paragraphs upon paragraphs detailing your awkwardness with women and confidence issues. Because of the dramatic title, I see that some people didn't even read your post and assumed you were planning a m@ss sh00ting or something. I'll confess that even I skimmed through many parts, even though I'm generally interested in your story.
Secondly, if you're looking for sympathy you won't get it here. Here, people want to solve problems, and it's not entirely clear what your problems are (or if it is clear, it's buried under mountains of text). You said at one point, "where do I go from here?", and that's a very vague question which ultimately you have to decide. People on this forum can guide you down a certain path, but you have to choose which path. My only guidance is please don't give up. Coming here is a good step, and if you tell us specifically what you're doing to better yourself, or what you're struggling with, people will be more willing and able to help you.
It's not clear what your progress with daygame is. You say you've been approaching since April with little success. Tell us a bit more about your typical approach. Where do you do it? Do you approach women who are alone or groups? What age do you go for? What kind of things do you say? How do interactions typically end? Have you got any numbers? Perhaps start a journal on a separate thread.
I'm still relatively new to daygame but some good advice, if you're socially awkward and/or anxious, is to get used to talking to strangers in general. I have been trying this - starting conversations with strangers without intending to "game", just to get comfortable with chatting to random people. The following infographic really helps. It can feel very hard to apply this "D-pad" method in real life, because you might be nervous and find it hard to think of things which are more specific, more broad, or tangentially related, but the more you practise the better you'll get (I'm seeing improvements already), and hopefully there will come a time when I (and you!) can just do it without thinking. Roosh mentions "conversational bait" in his books Day Bang and Game, I recommend getting those 2 books if you can. Some others have mentioned How to Win Friends and Influence People, I recommend that too.
Infographic link: https://i.imgur.com/pqyEYax.jpg (I didn't attach the image because it was so huge)
If the link doesn't work, google search "Conversational D-Pad"
Finally, make sure you're taking action every day to somehow better yourself. If you're not approaching, you're reading a useful book. If you're not reading, you're watching something interesting on TV, something which either gives you something interesting to talk about (a documentary for example), or something which shows you how normal/likeable people interact (Roosh recommends Seinfeld, lol). Ever heard the phrase, "Knowing is half the battle"? That's true, it's only half the battle. Taking action is the ESSENTIAL other half, so go do it.