[BeardedMastodon]

OP

I appreciate your extreme honesty, and respect you for it.... because what you have shared clearly opens the door for judgments and criticisms from others.

My main thought, you are DEPRESSED and have been for a long time (before your mom died), you just don’t know it.... actually, you do know it, you just don’t understand it or have not labeled it.

But knowing is half the battle, so there you go. I do not know ANYONE with normal brain chemistry and neurotransmitters who would sit at a computer for so long and unemployed. Meaning, something biological is going on. But, your crappy decisions have reinforced your depression thus hurling you further into the realm of, apathy, depression and hell.

I am sure mental illnesses have big stigmas where you are from, so, I understand if you don’t recognize the tiger for the tiger.

Take your money, see a physiatrist before anything else. Research supplements for low apathy or depression (5htp, L dopa, lots of fish oil, and adaptogens come to mind). Try a phycadelic or dissociative, this has a very good chance of causing you to rethink your life, and bring healing to your brain biology.

Try some magic mushrooms, some ayahuasca, LSD or ketamine... you need a kick in the ass and something to change your perspective... and these substances can do that! Yes, this time the answer really is drugs. Just do it, try it, do something!!!

[Vancity29]

This seems like a massive troll that all of you fell for by responding with real advise.

[Henny]

Yes it always surprises me how much guys here fall for the trolls, they probably get trolled by women in real life too

[ksbms]

(08-16-2018 07:43 AM)dfgdfgdfg Wrote:  

(08-16-2018 12:45 AM)Donfitz007 Wrote:  

Ok guys lets be nice here.

Although i have no expertise on the subject, there's a lot of information on here on how to start. You've said you've been reading this site for a while now so just go into more detail when you search things

Good luck and i pray the people on here have better advice. Also sorry for your loss and divorce

Thanks. One of the problem reading a lot of threads is conflicting answers. For example in one thread you'll have people singing praises of living in Lviv from 4 years back and another thread from around the same period saying how shitty it is. I guess best thing to do is actually going there myself.

(08-16-2018 02:54 AM)Hephaestus Wrote:  

Generating income online isn't as easy as the adverts say. It's not something to bootstrap any plans around, especially in an unfamiliar environment.

How good is your English? Cambodia still offers English teaching visas without a degree?

I think the best immediate course of action is to reconcile with your wife.
She tolerated your time-wasting for 5 years.

My english isn't that good, I hardly spoke to anyone in the last 5 years and have forgotten much about grammar.

Yet you write using all the right tenses, deploying extensive vocabulary, adequate grammar, and producing perfect syntax. Interesting contradiction.