So a quick backstory. I grew up in a very strict home, and my dad used to beat us and have us stay away from video games, and was very tough about school etc. When we got bad grades he would take away our phones, the internet and have us grounded. So for that reason back then i never actually developed a good relationship with him. I saw his punishment as harsh and unnecessary, and not as he just wanted the best for his children.
Fast forward till today. I moved out from home this year and my sister had moved out a year ago. So now it's just my dad and mom alone at home. I rarely talk to my dad, it's usually just a once a week call where he asks if everything is going well and if i need some money, and it lasts no more than 1 minute. I grew up envying the kids with supportive dads, that went to see their football matches, or went to hang out, or showed interest for their sons hobbies. Mine wasn't like this. His dad died while he was 10, so i guess he never had a father figure growing up, and therefor didn't know how to handle all of this.
Today he called me and asked if he can drive over to my place to talk, and that he wants to spend time with me. Mind you, this never ever happened before in my life, our egos always clashed and we never spent time together. We always fought. So i was wondering if something was wrong.
He told me this. "I don't know how to tell you this, something has been on my mind for a long time and it's seriously bugging me. It's bugging me to the point that im getting depressed over it. I don't feel like your mom is showing me affection. She doesn't care about me as she used to, and even though i do everything for her, she doesn't seem to recognize it. I don't have anyone to talk to, so i am hoping for your help."
I said, dad, this is a part of life, you're 50 years old, your time is up. You've had attention and affection and everything when you were young. And he looked at me and said something that saddened me. He said "even though i am 50, i don't feel like it, i feel like im still young and can experience a lot of things. I used to be good with girls and get all the attention, and have people and friends ask about me all the time, but now nobody speaks to me or shows me affection. It's like nobody cares, not even the few friends i have. I know this is weird for you to hear, but i haven't had any female connection for forever. I wish i could talk to girls and go out and travel and explore new things, without your mom getting in the way. While i fantasize so much about having a relationship with another woman, thinking about your mom holds me back. I don't want to make her sad, and i don't want to throw away my whole life for an affair. I truly don't know what to do. Your mom would get sad even if i just get a female friend to talk to. And i have a family, i can't be seen around with another woman, what would people think?"
This is the first time ever my dad and i spoke about something this deep, and i really do wanna help him, but im not sure how? He's 50 and i know a lot of you are in your 40's here and married. How can i help my dad get over these thoughts? Or possible have him get a little taste of what it's like being young again? I don't think he's talking about just sex etc, i think he just misses female company. He says he misses a girl that shows she cares about him, and that he's important for her and gives him the feeling that he's "desired". I believe he's talking about the romance and feelings part of the spectrum. But i could be wrong.
He says he envies me, and that he sometimes wish he was born in another timeline, or that he could go back in time and experience everything all over again. My dad got married at 26 and my mom was his first and only woman he has ever been with. I believe he wants a taste of what it's like to be alive again. I was never there for my dad, and grew up my teenage years "hating him" because all he did was punish me, and only realized years later, that he did it with a good intention. I'm happy for what kind of person i am today, and i feel like i owe my dad something. I never made his life easy and as his only son, he just wanted to be proud, but i always was the black sheep in the family and couldn't give him what he wanted... This makes me so sad, that i want to do this one thing for him. Just help him out of this situation...
Fast forward till today. I moved out from home this year and my sister had moved out a year ago. So now it's just my dad and mom alone at home. I rarely talk to my dad, it's usually just a once a week call where he asks if everything is going well and if i need some money, and it lasts no more than 1 minute. I grew up envying the kids with supportive dads, that went to see their football matches, or went to hang out, or showed interest for their sons hobbies. Mine wasn't like this. His dad died while he was 10, so i guess he never had a father figure growing up, and therefor didn't know how to handle all of this.
Today he called me and asked if he can drive over to my place to talk, and that he wants to spend time with me. Mind you, this never ever happened before in my life, our egos always clashed and we never spent time together. We always fought. So i was wondering if something was wrong.
He told me this. "I don't know how to tell you this, something has been on my mind for a long time and it's seriously bugging me. It's bugging me to the point that im getting depressed over it. I don't feel like your mom is showing me affection. She doesn't care about me as she used to, and even though i do everything for her, she doesn't seem to recognize it. I don't have anyone to talk to, so i am hoping for your help."
I said, dad, this is a part of life, you're 50 years old, your time is up. You've had attention and affection and everything when you were young. And he looked at me and said something that saddened me. He said "even though i am 50, i don't feel like it, i feel like im still young and can experience a lot of things. I used to be good with girls and get all the attention, and have people and friends ask about me all the time, but now nobody speaks to me or shows me affection. It's like nobody cares, not even the few friends i have. I know this is weird for you to hear, but i haven't had any female connection for forever. I wish i could talk to girls and go out and travel and explore new things, without your mom getting in the way. While i fantasize so much about having a relationship with another woman, thinking about your mom holds me back. I don't want to make her sad, and i don't want to throw away my whole life for an affair. I truly don't know what to do. Your mom would get sad even if i just get a female friend to talk to. And i have a family, i can't be seen around with another woman, what would people think?"
This is the first time ever my dad and i spoke about something this deep, and i really do wanna help him, but im not sure how? He's 50 and i know a lot of you are in your 40's here and married. How can i help my dad get over these thoughts? Or possible have him get a little taste of what it's like being young again? I don't think he's talking about just sex etc, i think he just misses female company. He says he misses a girl that shows she cares about him, and that he's important for her and gives him the feeling that he's "desired". I believe he's talking about the romance and feelings part of the spectrum. But i could be wrong.
He says he envies me, and that he sometimes wish he was born in another timeline, or that he could go back in time and experience everything all over again. My dad got married at 26 and my mom was his first and only woman he has ever been with. I believe he wants a taste of what it's like to be alive again. I was never there for my dad, and grew up my teenage years "hating him" because all he did was punish me, and only realized years later, that he did it with a good intention. I'm happy for what kind of person i am today, and i feel like i owe my dad something. I never made his life easy and as his only son, he just wanted to be proud, but i always was the black sheep in the family and couldn't give him what he wanted... This makes me so sad, that i want to do this one thing for him. Just help him out of this situation...