Greetings,
I'm new to the forum, been reading blogs on Roosh's website and bought a Ebook + state of man lecture.
What brings me here is I'm a beginner to the player lifestyle and I'm starting from the ground up. I recently left Toronto in March for a new life in Ottawa. I'm happy that I made the decision and move.
=== BACKGROUND INFO ===
Ethnicity: North Indian (Punjabi)
Height: 5 foot 10
Weight: 235 lb
Age: 27
I grew up in Toronto, Canada and at the age of 27 I have limited sexual experiences. Unfortunately I've had sex with only a few women, dated 2 as gf's, and had sex only a few times my whole life. I'm looking to fix this problem and start a new life in this new city.
Well you may wonder what has got me to this point, and here are my reasons.
1) Toronto - speaks for itself
2) premature hair loss - I started to lose my hair at age 19. Im a okay looking guy bald but it made it even more difficult in a hyper competitive dating market.
3) personal life problems - I grew up in a dysfunctional family where it was a matriarchy and even experienced domestic violence & abuse. My mother since a young age would be very possessive and abusive to me. She would snap at me for any small mistake. My father was emasculated and my mother would have to make decisions for him. He was out of alignment with his masculinity which had a negative impact on me. Also I experienced close family friends have divorces and experience domestic violence. A family that my family was close to and friends with had to call the police once because the husband would get drunk and beat his wife. I saw the police car take him away, it was surprising at a young age.
Also I grew up around a lot of negative people who would smoke weed, sell weed, and partake in criminal activities. Plus I was living in the suburbs and weed + masturbation makes you one passive individual.
Also having personal debts, getting kicked out of colleges, and getting into trouble also made things more difficult. Life has been a struggle for a while for me.
Lastly my personal hobbies, I got serious into music production at age 21 and was pursuing it vigorously until recently. I was willing to make a sacrifice of women since I wanted that to be my career and wanted to start a internet business revolved around music production.
I got the chance to meet 9th wonder and Just blaze, get into vinyl records, and attend beat battles plus music conferences in Toronto.
I also went on a spiritual journey for about 3 years where I got into Buddhism, was part of the 13th sun cult, went vegetarian than vegan and than explored a raw food diet.
Just recently I had to leave my home in March due to fighting with my mother and crashed at my cousins apartment in Ottawa. I got a job here as a security guard for govt sites (commisionaires). I also stopped speaking to almost all family and friends and have been a bit lonely. It's been a tough journey this life of mine.
4) weight gain - after I got into music production it's been difficult for me to lose my stubborn fat. Now at a whooping 235 lb ... Yes I know I realized certain diets and foods don't cut it for me. I believe stress and anxiety from everything also contributed. Also veganism and having a lack of protein in my diet contributed to my current weight gain. I'm figuring out the best diet and workout regiment. I was fat before and lost 50 lbs back in high school. So I can definately get back into shape.
5) low sex drive - my sex drive was low due to a lot of masturbation back in the day, veganism, and stress.
Right now I'm working as a security guard at a govt site. I make okay money for a security guard and looking to get into stock trading. It's a brand new field and looking to make a living off it.
What I want is...
To be a player where I have multiple sexual partners here in Ottawa, and have the ability to successfully date women here. I looking for direction because I know I need to get into shape, start making good money, get more experience in dating, and look my best. I also know sexual performance is important to keep a woman. I got myself a fleshlight and a shower mount for temporary practise.
So far living in Ottawa I gotten two women give me choosing signals and one of them approached me running game on me. As a fat bald guy so there's definately opportunity for me. Since I'm starting from the beginning I need direction...
After I take care of some of my health issues and get my sex drive up and kill this ED I got...
Should I work on my weight and appearance before I get into the game?
Should I focus on stock trading since I'm just getting into it and make a killing and just have a couple chicks until that kicks off?
Should I start hitting clubs bars or alternative venues?
Thanks for everything, cheers.
I'm new to the forum, been reading blogs on Roosh's website and bought a Ebook + state of man lecture.
What brings me here is I'm a beginner to the player lifestyle and I'm starting from the ground up. I recently left Toronto in March for a new life in Ottawa. I'm happy that I made the decision and move.
=== BACKGROUND INFO ===
Ethnicity: North Indian (Punjabi)
Height: 5 foot 10
Weight: 235 lb
Age: 27
I grew up in Toronto, Canada and at the age of 27 I have limited sexual experiences. Unfortunately I've had sex with only a few women, dated 2 as gf's, and had sex only a few times my whole life. I'm looking to fix this problem and start a new life in this new city.
Well you may wonder what has got me to this point, and here are my reasons.
1) Toronto - speaks for itself
2) premature hair loss - I started to lose my hair at age 19. Im a okay looking guy bald but it made it even more difficult in a hyper competitive dating market.
3) personal life problems - I grew up in a dysfunctional family where it was a matriarchy and even experienced domestic violence & abuse. My mother since a young age would be very possessive and abusive to me. She would snap at me for any small mistake. My father was emasculated and my mother would have to make decisions for him. He was out of alignment with his masculinity which had a negative impact on me. Also I experienced close family friends have divorces and experience domestic violence. A family that my family was close to and friends with had to call the police once because the husband would get drunk and beat his wife. I saw the police car take him away, it was surprising at a young age.
Also I grew up around a lot of negative people who would smoke weed, sell weed, and partake in criminal activities. Plus I was living in the suburbs and weed + masturbation makes you one passive individual.
Also having personal debts, getting kicked out of colleges, and getting into trouble also made things more difficult. Life has been a struggle for a while for me.
Lastly my personal hobbies, I got serious into music production at age 21 and was pursuing it vigorously until recently. I was willing to make a sacrifice of women since I wanted that to be my career and wanted to start a internet business revolved around music production.
I got the chance to meet 9th wonder and Just blaze, get into vinyl records, and attend beat battles plus music conferences in Toronto.
I also went on a spiritual journey for about 3 years where I got into Buddhism, was part of the 13th sun cult, went vegetarian than vegan and than explored a raw food diet.
Just recently I had to leave my home in March due to fighting with my mother and crashed at my cousins apartment in Ottawa. I got a job here as a security guard for govt sites (commisionaires). I also stopped speaking to almost all family and friends and have been a bit lonely. It's been a tough journey this life of mine.
4) weight gain - after I got into music production it's been difficult for me to lose my stubborn fat. Now at a whooping 235 lb ... Yes I know I realized certain diets and foods don't cut it for me. I believe stress and anxiety from everything also contributed. Also veganism and having a lack of protein in my diet contributed to my current weight gain. I'm figuring out the best diet and workout regiment. I was fat before and lost 50 lbs back in high school. So I can definately get back into shape.
5) low sex drive - my sex drive was low due to a lot of masturbation back in the day, veganism, and stress.
Right now I'm working as a security guard at a govt site. I make okay money for a security guard and looking to get into stock trading. It's a brand new field and looking to make a living off it.
What I want is...
To be a player where I have multiple sexual partners here in Ottawa, and have the ability to successfully date women here. I looking for direction because I know I need to get into shape, start making good money, get more experience in dating, and look my best. I also know sexual performance is important to keep a woman. I got myself a fleshlight and a shower mount for temporary practise.
So far living in Ottawa I gotten two women give me choosing signals and one of them approached me running game on me. As a fat bald guy so there's definately opportunity for me. Since I'm starting from the beginning I need direction...
After I take care of some of my health issues and get my sex drive up and kill this ED I got...
Should I work on my weight and appearance before I get into the game?
Should I focus on stock trading since I'm just getting into it and make a killing and just have a couple chicks until that kicks off?
Should I start hitting clubs bars or alternative venues?
Thanks for everything, cheers.