Quote: (04-20-2017 12:05 PM)General Stalin Wrote:
Quote: (04-20-2017 09:38 AM)MaceTyrell Wrote:
Have been roughly 2 months of no contact. Although I have social media stalked her almost daily, and called her presumably old number. Been more than four months and it is getting slightly better.
Block her on social media.
It does you zero benefit to be looking her up.
Mace's ongoing struggles resonates for me.
I don't want to go into particulars but I had an unusual level of access to one of my exes search behavior and I spent a long stretch of time (I think it was two years) following along. I rationalized it at first because I had questions I felt needed answering that couldn't be answered because of her cutting me off. I managed to piece together what I needed and from that point onward all I was doing was reinforcing my conclusion that she had doubled-down on a dead-end lifestyle that I had invested a lot of time and energy to rescue her from.
Reading between the lines of Mace's posts I get a sense that he wants a reminder that his ex still thinks of him. I was doing some of that too, and the evidence of that was few and far between. I cared less about that than I just wanted to feel like I had some lasting positive impact in maybe getting her shit together, but it didn't happen, which left me feeling like our time was nothing but a disposable turn around the cock carousel for her.
I will never be able to get back the time I wasted doing this stuff. By the end of it all I was thinking was how much more time I had spent feeling angry and miserable vs. the brief little window of good times I had with this woman. That "long tail" of misery was doing nothing but tipping the scales in my memory of the entire experience more and more towards the negative. If I had more red-pill knowledge back then I would never have placed my trust in this woman's words in the first place, so when she invariably broke promises and turned on me I would have seen it as par for the course.
It's best to treat any relations with women as at-will employment. No matter how good it may seem, it's here today, gone tomorrow. Shrug off any bullshit about loving you until the end of time and just enjoy what you have while you have it, knowing that it won't last.
It's not just contact, it's the time spent just thinking about your ex that is self-hurtful. Mace may be no-contact but he hasn't flushed his mind of her enough to really have gotten out the other side. I don't think there's a way to do this without finding something new to replace that focus. If it's not a new relationship it has to be some sort of personal project or hobby. Anything as long as it's stimulating enough to feel more worth your attention than trying to itch where you can't scratch.
Whether women find it easier to bounce back after a breakup or not doesn't matter. You have to tend to yourself. The type of guys who have the hardest time moving on are introverts with lots of idle time to feel sorry for themselves. When you think of Eternal Sunshine, think of how nonexistent their social life was outside of their relationship. When you're not socializing with other people you wind up falling back to inner dialogue and ruminating through memories.
Time does heal all wounds in the end. Even though I sometimes wax philosophical about this particular episode, it no longer has the ability to give me that "pang in the chest" sensation it used to. Somehow it's been filed away so I can look at it in sort of a cold and clinical way. Unfortunately it took, I dunno, 3-4 years for it to wind down to this point. It would have taken less if I had adopted healthier routines. So Mace, you gotta avoid going down that road.