Quote: (05-15-2015 02:50 PM)The Beast1 Wrote:
Quote: (05-15-2015 02:40 PM)Troll King Wrote:
Especially if they are boys. They would grow up knowing their mom was a cheating whore and that if they ever want children then they need to understand that all women have the same ability to destroy a man as their mom destroyed me.
It might seem kinda cruel, but what is worse. Just dipping out of a kids life with no warning (assuming the kid is older than four or so) or simply being the "uncle" who takes the kid fishing, off roading, hunting, whatever, a few times a month and constantly explains why you are not their father when the kid asks.
I'm all for hard red pill lessons, but this is one that takes the cake. I'd be curious to hear from children whose mothers actually did this and how they felt about their moms as they got older.
Children tend to be super forgiving of f*cked up situations. It isn't until they're adults with some life experience does the anger start to come forth.
Well. I really suspect that my dad isn't actually my dad. I simply haven't gotten around to getting a DNA test yet. I actually have it but haven't submitted it because I am waiting to finish my degree and have more financial security and independence from my parents.
My mom is big into genealogy. Over the holidays, partly because I have been mentioning it for the last few years to gauge her reactions, she bought some of those ancestry.com dna test for her, my dad, and my aunt and uncle. When I said I wanted one for me and my brother to add to the profile, at first she was very dodgy about it but I eventually said I would just order my own and she went ahead and got ahead of it and ordered a couple more for me and my brother and some of our great aunts. I am sure she just wants to get a full profile of our genetic legacy like I suggested.
I honestly don't know. To be clear, I am kind of afraid of what I will find.
My mom, or actually both my parents, are really controlling in many ways and like to sabotage my plans for independence. I used to think this was because they were older and were realizing they needed more help or would in the future. I spent a lot of time in my 20s taking care of my grandmother after she came down with dementia. That is one of several reason why I haven't hit the traditional adult milestones at the same rate and in the same time table that I should have. Another reason is that I am just a bit of a fuck up.
As far as why I wonder about my dad, well....where to begin.
First, I am the only person, literally, in my family who isn't overweight, doesn't have high cholesterol, and even more importantly has good eyesight. Every member of my family, my brother, mom and dad, aunt by blood and grandmother were wearing glasses by the age of ten.
Until I got a bit of an injury in my left eye a few years ago I have always had better than 20/20 vision and now my vision is still good enough that I don't need glasses.
There is also the fact that I don't look anything like my dad but my brother does. They have some of the same mannerisms and ticks and I don't seem to have anything related to either my dad or even to my mom. I know I couldn't have been switched at birth because I was born at home. So, the question becomes:
1: I got some genetics that seemed to skip a generation or two
or
2: My mom was big into the feminist community, served on the board of NOW even, in the Washington DC area during the 70's and 80's. She is a lawyer. Hell, at an early age I was even put on some play dates with one of my moms friends who later because vice president of NOW. I remember them all sitting around drinking wine while me and my brother and their kids went running around some big house or apt or something. I don't know. I wasn't even five at the time.
Anyways. Is it possible that my mom met some alpha guy and passed me off to my admittingly beta dad?
When I first found the manosphere and started reading about the alpha/beta dynamic it really fucking pissed me off. I am talking hulk rage levels of pissed off and I went on a multiple month bender. Why?
My entire life I have seen my dad laugh about how my mom is the alpha male or alpha dog of the relationship. I never really knew what that meant and didn't have any context to put it into. I just knew that the way he would joke about it, and other things too, would make my fucking skin crawl in the same fashion as it does with all those sitcoms that constantly put down the male characters. God damn.
If I found out that option two is in fact true, I am afraid that I might actually get violent and do something that would land me in jail or prison. But on the other hand, I do need to know. I am just not sure how well I can find out with the ancestry.com dna tests. I have seen how they show where you are from, but if my mom hooked up with some one similar in genetic background to my dad then it may not be conclusive. On the other hand, there must be somewhere that I can send the data and have it analyzed that would confirm my suspicions. Even then though, what the fuck do you do with that type of information? I don't know. I gotta step away from this for a bit because just thinking about this shit puts me in a really dark mood.
Women these days think they can shop for a man like they shop for a purse or a pair of shoes. Sorry ladies. It doesn't work that way.
Women are like sandwiches. All men love sandwiches. That's a given. But sandwiches are only good when they're fresh. Nobody wants a day old sandwich. The bread is all soggy and the meat is spoiled.
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