Hey guys, got down by a bout of the seasonal illness. Here is all of my info, and id like to thank you guys in advance for all the help and support.
Physical Appearance:
Sikh Guy(Google Sikhism if you dont know about it) and wear a turban with a beard(no im not a muslim).
Pretty well built body, into hard core gyming, neither lean nor bulky, more on the strong side well definition chest and biceps. Im 5ft 5 inches tall. If anyone is wondering my turban is not something that puts me down I play more of an exotic card. I believe my deficiences stem from Beta behaviour and poor game. Age 22.
History: As a kid I was born and brought up in New York but after which at the age of 11ish I moved to India for my parents to be closer to the family. I used get emotionally attached a lot and ran after girls did all the stupidest shit ever got no dates and a few chances were missed by appearing to be needy and possessive. The only good thing i ever did even then was to never stop still kept hitting on girls and hence I have little approach anxiety or communication problems. So the game changed when i got stuck into a oneitis and breaking out of it took all of my strength and courage, came near to suicide, didn't do it though promised myself that ill fight for this chick till I can and then slowly understand that this wasnt the way its supposed to be. Got out of oneitis, by naturally developing a "I dont give a shit attitude" got my first proper girlfriend at the age of 20 (
yeah I know, a combination of India and me being Beta) didnt bang, she was too much of a kid, dumped her after 6 months and got another girlfriend who is kinda like a fuck buddy doesnt mind me being with other girls or running game.
Problems: The thing is after these two girls my train has run cold I havent had any luck since then, had a few opportunities and they bummed due to no apparent reason. Also while getting out of oneitis cause me to have a slick attitude, i has dumbed down my conversation skills and i literally dont give a shit about anything. I dont feel like talking to anyone, earlier i used to be a pretty jovial guy who could yap for hours, no its diffficult for me to get 2 words out.
Also while running came and consciously doing stuff like maintaining eye contact and escalation it feels pretty weird. Also i think that the "Game" has to be changed a little taking into account the India factor. This is where i need help. Also im trying to write down with a lot of clarity on my problems and approaches. Ill start another thread for that.