For a very long time, I have struggled with proper time management.
Everything I seem to want to do feels like a big obstacle.
Whether it was weight training, reading to expand my knowledge, studying for school, learning more on the side, playing guitar, whatever.
I look at the task, and I overthink. The best way is to just go out and get it done. The only thing that I have even a semblance of control on is weight training. But even with that, I still get a sense of a "helplessness". No control. And I cannot seem to be completely zen about it.
Some days are good, and I feel more free, and I'm in a better position to get work done. Many other days, I fall behind.
Here's how it feels. It is like everything is a big task. And there many things. Then I feel like I may not have enough time or the ability to complete those tasks. I end up zombie-ing about, not finishing anything. A lot of time passes by. It feels like setting up even two tasks for the day (say, cooking and gym) will fill up the whole day. I am not sure what happens, but it feels like there's nothing I can do about it. For e.g, I will feel like I can't learn extra math or how to code, because I still need to worry about my current math class, and then my other classes. Same thing with reading non-fiction. I can't seem to be able to juggle multiple tasks.
Notice how I said "feel" a lot. I think that the problem lies more in my thinking patterns. I need to change the way I think about my life and my time. My mindset needs to change!
Pavlina, and other self help writers, talk about how habits define you. So, I started small. I made it a point to be at the gym 2-3 times a week. I cut back on drinking, went 6 weeks without, and this time, it will be 8 weeks. I will likely try to push it a bit further, until my finals are over.
The other thing is I am just a college student in a STEM field. I am fortunate enough to not have to work this semester. My courses are hard, but there are people who work long hours, and pull straight As, still find time for the gym, and extra reading, and girls. I am doing barely any of that!
As it stands, I am behind on all of my classes. I always feel like I am nearing the finish line, and then I find that it got pushed further away, and I have been out of breath for the last few miles. I am eating better, but my diet is not as good as I want it to be.
I am **not** on autopilot. I wish I could get myself on autopilot, and just do what I need to do!
This needs to end. Now.
Any suggestions?
Everything I seem to want to do feels like a big obstacle.
Whether it was weight training, reading to expand my knowledge, studying for school, learning more on the side, playing guitar, whatever.
I look at the task, and I overthink. The best way is to just go out and get it done. The only thing that I have even a semblance of control on is weight training. But even with that, I still get a sense of a "helplessness". No control. And I cannot seem to be completely zen about it.
Some days are good, and I feel more free, and I'm in a better position to get work done. Many other days, I fall behind.
Here's how it feels. It is like everything is a big task. And there many things. Then I feel like I may not have enough time or the ability to complete those tasks. I end up zombie-ing about, not finishing anything. A lot of time passes by. It feels like setting up even two tasks for the day (say, cooking and gym) will fill up the whole day. I am not sure what happens, but it feels like there's nothing I can do about it. For e.g, I will feel like I can't learn extra math or how to code, because I still need to worry about my current math class, and then my other classes. Same thing with reading non-fiction. I can't seem to be able to juggle multiple tasks.
Notice how I said "feel" a lot. I think that the problem lies more in my thinking patterns. I need to change the way I think about my life and my time. My mindset needs to change!
Pavlina, and other self help writers, talk about how habits define you. So, I started small. I made it a point to be at the gym 2-3 times a week. I cut back on drinking, went 6 weeks without, and this time, it will be 8 weeks. I will likely try to push it a bit further, until my finals are over.
The other thing is I am just a college student in a STEM field. I am fortunate enough to not have to work this semester. My courses are hard, but there are people who work long hours, and pull straight As, still find time for the gym, and extra reading, and girls. I am doing barely any of that!
As it stands, I am behind on all of my classes. I always feel like I am nearing the finish line, and then I find that it got pushed further away, and I have been out of breath for the last few miles. I am eating better, but my diet is not as good as I want it to be.
I am **not** on autopilot. I wish I could get myself on autopilot, and just do what I need to do!
This needs to end. Now.
Any suggestions?