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You know, I have this voice in my head telling me that I should be able to fix myself. To not have shitty days. To somehow, do it all right. Be, I don't know, spiritually worthy and always fulfilled or whatever. I fail to allow myself to have those shitty days. The voice tells me that normal, good people just work and have no abnormal emotions that weirdly stick out.
You're dealing with self-judgement and resistance to what is. That's normal. I would highly recommend you read The Power of Now by Eckhart Tolle. There are excerpts on YouTube.
Try observing those thoughts and emotions without identifying with them or judging them and practice allowing them to be as you watch them. Surrender 100% to what is, as part of this moment, and then see what happens.
If only you knew how bad things really are.