[eazybrezzy]

As hard as it sounds you need to forgive and let go of the past. It sounds like you have a lot of issues that need dealing with and the only place you can deal with them is in the now. Get a hobby, exercise everyday even if it's just a walk. Eat good healthy food and count your blessings. You found your way here so you are already at an advantage to most guys. Use this site and focus on building the life you want. Be the hero of your own movie and for goodness sake gat over bitches from your past.