[Comte De St. Germain]

(12-29-2017 07:59 PM)AnonymousBosch Wrote:  

Comte: do you think your father's neuroticism - I recognise my mother in your statements - came from possessing a high intelligence, or was it trained into him from his parents? Hers, unfortunately, was a combination of both.

Unmistakably both as well. My grandmother is alive and kicking like the old poisonous crone she is and tried to imbue me with the same poison my father was imbued with. I'd like to believe I'm on the intelligent side and being close with her in my early childhood(when my parents were first married we lived with them) she still to this day believes she has the power to raise me in much the same way.

Clear high intelligence with a gamma upbringing drilled in is a deadly cocktail. I say gamma as well because a lot of things you see with your stepdad I see with my father quite clearly. Especially the rephrasing of things he's heard from me or others as his own words hell even things he hears or reads from religious people or texts(he is Muslim mind you). The former to sound intelligent(as aside from his work he was a dullard) and the latter to appear "wise".

I would always have these stubborn repetitive stories and faux morality drilled into my head almost daily about the same things from him. What was worse was that he would turn around and lie as well as do other immoral things of his own accord. Namely and especially gossiping like a woman. And to his mother(and sister) no less whom encouraged it. Usually about me and my brothers, my mother, extended family, and/or family friends. Also definitely at the same time interconnecting them if at all possible.

Though the nail in the coffin and the first thing that started most of my hate towards him when I was really young was definitely this(around late elementary early middle school). If I had confided in him and trusted him as son to father about something I needed advice about, even PC by our family standards stuff, I'd bet my ass I'd hear grandmother and aunty dearest guffawing like the crones they were in a corner about it at family get togethers much like they were about any "family drama". And the parroting of their haglike opinions by him whenever he could was without end(to the point he couldn't form any independent thoughts without their complete influence).