Data sheet: Losing virginity late and the effect it has on game/relationships
01-08-2019, 01:06 PM
So I lost my virginity at 21 years old. I could have definitively lost it earlier but I guess you could say I was a weird kid, girls would approach me when I was in my early/mid teens but I would turn them down honestly I just hated everyone around me at that stage in my life and was depressed and wanted to die. Around when high school started I started getting less attention then before since I was super poor wearing the same outfit basically all of high school, still depressed, dealing with abusive family, fucked up teeth, living in the boonies just all my shit was fucked up. I'm actually very attractive face wise but there was to many things I was depressed about and to many things that were actually holding me back. But even at this stage some girls still approached me but more rarely then before yet I stilled turned down those that showed some interest.
I always felt like to be with a girl I needed to be perfect and not poor, fucked up teeth bad logistics etc. while these things definitely harmed me I just needed forget about my insecurities and at least go for it. I also wanted to find a girl that I actually cared about and lose my virginity to her which would be nice but you shouldn't wait forever for that. I just disliked most people in general including the girls I was around but I still wanted a relationship with someone I cared about. This resulted in me ending in a weird situation I was now 21 and a virgin if I get in a relationship with a girl and she knows that it would definitely be a big turn off for her to know I lost mine at 21 she would look down on me.
So first off I decided to finally just and have sex even if I don't care deeply for the girl or if my insecurities still haven't been fixed, I lost my virginity at 21. But I felt like I needed a very high body count to offset having lost my virginity at 21 so my future LTR wouldn't look down on me this was really my main motivation, I didn't want to have sex with a lot of girls well I did but my main motivation was so my LTR wouldn't look down on me.
I had sex with over 100 girls in less then a year. And I wasn't just fucking anyone I was fucking a lot of high quality girls (looks wise). I was around the insta model scene for a bit and hung out with some of those "aspiring models" I wasn't really around them in any real official capacity we just chilled since we were around the same age and it was all in good fun. I'd say all the girls I fucked were 7+ and the majority were 8+.
The main reason why I went down this path is because I didn't want my future LTR to look down on me for less experience. I felt like a big body count would offset the fact I lost my virginity at 21. Another thing I get depressed about is I never had any relationships or sex in my teen years and that gets me very depressed a lot of the time makes me almost want to kill myself if I'm honest. So I guess while I'm still young I want to experience as much as possible.
I saw Roosh talk about how he lost his virginity at 22 and how lately no that he's 39 he sees that he did a lot of this game because he missed out when he was younger and now he's looking for more of an LTR I think. I feel like this is a prevalent feeling in the community and even society in general now with the rise of incels. I don't want to dwell to much on missing out in my teens but sometimes that loss really fucks with me mentally and I want to know how to deal with it better? I think I could potentially enter into an LTR now since I have had a high number of girls and I wouldn't be inexperienced or looked down for losing my virginity late. I just felt like I couldn't even attempt that until I had a high body count, but I want to hear your guys thoughts on my line of thinking and if I'm right or if you have another take on things?
I always felt like to be with a girl I needed to be perfect and not poor, fucked up teeth bad logistics etc. while these things definitely harmed me I just needed forget about my insecurities and at least go for it. I also wanted to find a girl that I actually cared about and lose my virginity to her which would be nice but you shouldn't wait forever for that. I just disliked most people in general including the girls I was around but I still wanted a relationship with someone I cared about. This resulted in me ending in a weird situation I was now 21 and a virgin if I get in a relationship with a girl and she knows that it would definitely be a big turn off for her to know I lost mine at 21 she would look down on me.
So first off I decided to finally just and have sex even if I don't care deeply for the girl or if my insecurities still haven't been fixed, I lost my virginity at 21. But I felt like I needed a very high body count to offset having lost my virginity at 21 so my future LTR wouldn't look down on me this was really my main motivation, I didn't want to have sex with a lot of girls well I did but my main motivation was so my LTR wouldn't look down on me.
I had sex with over 100 girls in less then a year. And I wasn't just fucking anyone I was fucking a lot of high quality girls (looks wise). I was around the insta model scene for a bit and hung out with some of those "aspiring models" I wasn't really around them in any real official capacity we just chilled since we were around the same age and it was all in good fun. I'd say all the girls I fucked were 7+ and the majority were 8+.
The main reason why I went down this path is because I didn't want my future LTR to look down on me for less experience. I felt like a big body count would offset the fact I lost my virginity at 21. Another thing I get depressed about is I never had any relationships or sex in my teen years and that gets me very depressed a lot of the time makes me almost want to kill myself if I'm honest. So I guess while I'm still young I want to experience as much as possible.
I saw Roosh talk about how he lost his virginity at 22 and how lately no that he's 39 he sees that he did a lot of this game because he missed out when he was younger and now he's looking for more of an LTR I think. I feel like this is a prevalent feeling in the community and even society in general now with the rise of incels. I don't want to dwell to much on missing out in my teens but sometimes that loss really fucks with me mentally and I want to know how to deal with it better? I think I could potentially enter into an LTR now since I have had a high number of girls and I wouldn't be inexperienced or looked down for losing my virginity late. I just felt like I couldn't even attempt that until I had a high body count, but I want to hear your guys thoughts on my line of thinking and if I'm right or if you have another take on things?