I started an engineering major because my dad is an engineer and wanted me to follow his path. My sister is doing a medical major because my mom is a doctor. My family has all a good educations and there's always been pressure and encouragement from the family for us to get the best one possible since we were kids. But after 1.5 years of intense killing myself studying and having no sleep/social life, barely 4-5 hours sleep a day, no friends, no motivation, I decided to quit my engineering major. It was a hard decision but I didn't like the direction my life was heading, I wanted to fix it.
I got into self-development and it helped me a ton. I took a 1 year hiatus to focus on myself and I got a side job while also started to get more social, focused more time in the gym and spent time meeting people, making friends, lost my virginity, got my first girlfriend. Got into reading and meditation, intermittent fasting, nofap, all the good stuff. I also got into volunteering work. Never felt so good in my life.
My parents were 'fine' with me dropping out of engineering major and supported me, but they wanted me to find another major that had my interest. They encouraged me to start studying again as soon as possible and not waste more time. Which is fair enough, i get it.
Now the time was up for applying to universities again, and I didn't know exactly what I would study this time around. But I decided on biology since I love the gym and was always interested in learning about the human anatomy and the processes behind it. So, I applied and I got into the major. I have been studying it for nearly 1 year now and I figured out it's not something for me. I'm having thoughts of quitting the education and go soul searching, figure out what I want with life. Do I want to keep studying or do I want to do something else with my life? You see, the thing is I'm scared to tell my parents since they've been a huge support for me both financially but also emotionally as well during my new education. I'm scared to death to stay the black sheep in the family when all i wanted was to make them proud.
I feel so guilty if I have to tell my mom for the second time that I'm quitting because right now, I'm clueless to what I should study and I'm afraid that if I keep dropping out early every time, I will never settle for an education. I will be wasting so much more time. I'm currently 22 years old and it's considered a little late if i don't finish an education within the next 2 years. Time passes and suddenly I will end up old with no education while all my friends are getting bachelors and associate degrees all around me, while I'm just there stuck in the same place. This is one of my biggest fears in life. Most my friends from high school nearly have a bachelor degree while I'm still here unsure what to do with my life.
Should I force myself to finish this education for another 2 years, but kill my self and rip the motivation out of my self just for this, and possibly end up in the life situation as when I was in the engineering major(sad, depressed etc) or should I look for something else that might finally interest me, like keep trying until i success with something.
My grades in high school sucked, and my options for entry are very limited if i apply for something new again. I got lucky getting into engineering because the application % was low that year, so they set the bar low. I know my parents will still support me even if i drop out, but i would feel like a complete disaster. The black sheep. Wasting precious time of my life jumping from education to education. Obviously they just want the best for me so i don't end up working a 9-5 low tier job with a dreadful salary.
Should I tell my parents I'm quitting or should I play it like I'm still continuing the biology study while applying for a new one in the meantime? Or should i just tell the truth. Need life advice.
I got into self-development and it helped me a ton. I took a 1 year hiatus to focus on myself and I got a side job while also started to get more social, focused more time in the gym and spent time meeting people, making friends, lost my virginity, got my first girlfriend. Got into reading and meditation, intermittent fasting, nofap, all the good stuff. I also got into volunteering work. Never felt so good in my life.
My parents were 'fine' with me dropping out of engineering major and supported me, but they wanted me to find another major that had my interest. They encouraged me to start studying again as soon as possible and not waste more time. Which is fair enough, i get it.
Now the time was up for applying to universities again, and I didn't know exactly what I would study this time around. But I decided on biology since I love the gym and was always interested in learning about the human anatomy and the processes behind it. So, I applied and I got into the major. I have been studying it for nearly 1 year now and I figured out it's not something for me. I'm having thoughts of quitting the education and go soul searching, figure out what I want with life. Do I want to keep studying or do I want to do something else with my life? You see, the thing is I'm scared to tell my parents since they've been a huge support for me both financially but also emotionally as well during my new education. I'm scared to death to stay the black sheep in the family when all i wanted was to make them proud.
I feel so guilty if I have to tell my mom for the second time that I'm quitting because right now, I'm clueless to what I should study and I'm afraid that if I keep dropping out early every time, I will never settle for an education. I will be wasting so much more time. I'm currently 22 years old and it's considered a little late if i don't finish an education within the next 2 years. Time passes and suddenly I will end up old with no education while all my friends are getting bachelors and associate degrees all around me, while I'm just there stuck in the same place. This is one of my biggest fears in life. Most my friends from high school nearly have a bachelor degree while I'm still here unsure what to do with my life.
Should I force myself to finish this education for another 2 years, but kill my self and rip the motivation out of my self just for this, and possibly end up in the life situation as when I was in the engineering major(sad, depressed etc) or should I look for something else that might finally interest me, like keep trying until i success with something.
My grades in high school sucked, and my options for entry are very limited if i apply for something new again. I got lucky getting into engineering because the application % was low that year, so they set the bar low. I know my parents will still support me even if i drop out, but i would feel like a complete disaster. The black sheep. Wasting precious time of my life jumping from education to education. Obviously they just want the best for me so i don't end up working a 9-5 low tier job with a dreadful salary.
Should I tell my parents I'm quitting or should I play it like I'm still continuing the biology study while applying for a new one in the meantime? Or should i just tell the truth. Need life advice.