Quote: (05-31-2018 02:29 PM)tomzestatlu Wrote:
This thread and it´s content has been on my mind for few days.
Well, I am much younger and definitely I can´t give you such life advices. But I must say I find myself with similar thoughts like you have. I´m 25.
Similiar problem I feel is the lack of any vision of life. Sure I can see myself living life like the society do, but I am not sure if it ever could satisfy me. I probably don´t know what is happiness. I think I can reach goals that majority can´t. But once I reach something, I crumple it up like a paper and throw away. I felt some kind of fullfilment 2 years ago, because I was 23 years old and I just reached everything I wanted to (got degree, got very well paying job I dreamed about and worked years fot it, got a girl I desired,...). Over last 6 months I´ve thrown everything away and started from the bottom with knowledge, that everything I will get in future I will get with knowledge that "I should", but definitely not "I desire". And then probably throw it away.
Enough of myself. I am sorry I can´t help you with my lack of experience, but definitely I will watch this thread. Let us informed about yourself.
It's good to know that we are never alone. We all can connect or relate to others. That's why this site is so incredible.
I appreciate you sharing tomzestatlu. Learn, just keeping learning as much about you as possible. I realize that no amount of money, fame, admiration, pussy, or any of that shit matters if you don't no HOW you tick. It's hard to meet that dark person, but it's paramount to be able to climb out of that fucking rabbit hole.
As for Thomas the Rhymer, I want to personally thank you for your insight. I started doing some research on BPD and met with my Dr and my therapist. They are convinced that I have borderline personality disorder.
He has started me on Lamictal and a low dose of xannies for sleep
I don't want to take meds, but I've never been exposed to a mood stabilizer. I'm going to at least try.
I resigned as a HS coach, because I want to begin focusing on me. I can't help anyone until I fix me first. I'm choosing myself right now (btw, James Altucher is the shit). I'm in complete monk mode, reading, researching, working as much as I can, eating nothing but good healthy natural foods, in the gym 7 days a week, saving every dime, meditating, and just absorbing anything and everything positive that I can.
tomzestatlu, shoot me a PM anytime man, I'll be here for any of you the same way you've been here for me.