[SteezeySteve]

I've had some G-shit issues go down with madness in the brain...not sure if its the soy getting to me or what man....but if anyone has any ideas i'm open to them. I realize this isn't a mental health board but I'm a normal person I just don't want to be locked up in any clock work orange type shit anymore man. You guys are just full of info and I may run into someone who's been there done that.

Anyways so as follows I don't do any drugs anymore...I stay the fuck away from mirrors and razorblades and only dabbled...I stay the fuck away from lsd after doing it 3 times. Doctors said my symptoms may be acid coming back to haunt me...the beaks were low quality so on some G-shit it may have been spiked with lord knows what. The pot we have these days is way to strong..I can't take it. I don't even trust myself to go out drinking unless I go through my night life prep routine to get my mind right and make sure my hair is dry before me and my running partner roll out.

So heres my issue..
I got a good sales job and really stressed out and started having hallucinations all kinds of crazy shit started happening like homeless people taking apart bathrooms,call girls,keeping my job because i had old rich ladies seduced,girls who i swear had eastern european drug connections,crooked cops,and the whole 9 yards.
My symptoms fit perfectly with a manic bipolar attack. I thought it was just stress induced and because I coupled working out 3 times a day with not sleeping or eating to train myself for investment banking...well I was all cool and normal healthy other than having to come back to grips on reality after living with crazy people for a month.

I got another attack and this time stayed up for 24 hours saying these kooks aren't finding out where my [down south] surf break is at because I though my parent's were French foreign legionares and my family was apart of a government program to create legionares and I was napoleon Bonaparte again...so I just gave my parents my shark knife and told them to kill me. I thought all my old buddies where apart of a kingsspeach plan to start a military coup and I was selected as the leader....so I was disappointed when I got back to the clock work orange place and was forced to comeback to reality when no helicopters landed and broke me out....and started having other delusions.

Now I'm normal but I just don't want to go crazy again. Anyone ever have super delusional attacksand ideas of what to do if you think your napolean Bonaparte reborn again and george soros is trying to kill you type shit happens again?
I know its not true and its funny looking back but I'm a liability running around my hood like that dude...I think everyone I don't know is a government assassin or something and could hurt other people meanwhile I'm having visions like mdmad out julios cesar mid seizure.

I realize its all false but if that strikes me again I just want ideas on how to maintain grips on reality and not get sent to any mental facilities if I have any more manic issues or I'm going to group therapy but I've just started writing about life while I'm there and that cures the madness and helps me organize my thoughts on rules to live by learned from everywhere from running game on hoes to surf breaks to wrestling rooms and lacrosse fields and gyms.

[Duke Main]

I am not a mental health professional. You should seek help from a real mental health professional.

Having said that, I'll just say that your diet is very important, and this was reinforced in my mind when my daughter had a mental health crisis. You might want to try a paleo diet with plenty of HEALTHY fats, ie. avocados, coconut oil, fatty grass fed meats.

I don't know who originally said it, but it's true, we're all dancing near a cliff of insanity. Some of us are closer to the edge than others.

Take care of your body and mind. Pay attention to what you eat and drink. Get adequate sleep. Get fresh air and sunlight and exercise.

Best of luck to you.

[Baphomet]

What you are describing is not a manic bipolar attack. Bipolar disorder may be part of your spectrum, but you are describing manic episodes with paranoid delusions/hallucinations.

You should seek professional medical assistance as soon as possible. Do not try to deal with this alone. It will only get worse without medical intervention.

[heavy]

I second what Baphomet said. I witnessed a friend go through some similar symptoms a few years ago. Thankfully he went to the mental institution in our city at the time. Don't be afraid to drive yourself there and talk to some professionals.

[godfather dust]

I used to smoke PCP almost every day. I went insane and the end result was a two year stay in a hospital/jail for the criminally insane.

I was on heavy medication for a long time. The medication for hallucinations is brutal but thankfully I've mostly reverted to my laid back fun self. The only current issue I have regarding mental health is I have is complete inability to fall asleep naturally. I take 50mg of Seroquel to sleep which is a very low dose without bad side effects.

See a doctor. Be aware that most of the medication for these problems is terrible for you, research side effects. I found the best medication in this regard is called abilify.

You can get through this, and myself and others have returned to sanity over time after the initial treatment phase. By all means feel free to PM me.

[SteezeySteve]

Already being done. I'm fine its just these attacks so to speak happen and kooky shit starts going haywire and these proffessionals aren't much help other than "drugs" which sedate me to the point of zombieism so I simply see them just to do something but I just don't see the therapy going anywhere.
I'd rather die then be zombified like that so I just cold turkeyed that shit before they messed me up more...anti-psychotics are no joke dude. I'm seeing doctors.

Diet and working out of course along with general health is being covered. Slowly getting my diet back to being like it was when I wrestled and did gymnastics. Picked up boxing as a combat sport to give me a reason to care about diet/health more (like when I wrestled) and i'm trying to learn how to surf cause I believe the ocean has the power to heal our minds.

http://www.cnn.com/2017/08/31/health/cnn...index.html

whole documentary on Netflix is dope..i forgot what its called but that should cover the just...using surfing to heal ptsd'd out vets.

I believe it...I've been a beach brat and always had an eye for surf breaks and waves so I believe it whole heartedly that water heals mental trauma...a long day at the beach just leaves you feeling some type of way that I can't describe.

Also picked up some high quality fish oil and taking multi vitamins consistently. Idk why I stopped taking fish oil and eating raw eggs in the first place....maybe its just a wake up call I was lucky to get while young

[Kona]

Get off the internet and go to the hospital.

Don't take this the wrong way, but every idea you have for self medicating or self healing is pointless. You aren't going to surf away schizophrenia.

Call 911 or go to the er right now.

Aloha!

[Suits]

This is not the place to ask for this type of help. You need to see a mental health professional in person.

I can understand if you don't want to go on medication. But better to talk to a professional about your various treatment options than to try to do it completely alone.

Just remember, you're both a risk to yourself and others if your having paranoid-delusion episodes where you don't know up from down.

Better to have to the bite the bullet by getting professionally prescribed treatment than to unintentionally engage in actions with lasting consequences will having an episode.

Get professional help.

[SteezeySteve]

Already being done...i'm seeing pros and refuse to bite the bullet because i'd rather but the bullet of being locked up then be on that shit ever. I couldn't even do simple stuff like wash dishes or operate a drier because of how heavily they medicated me. This is more so a matter of seeing if anyone here had been through the same thing before where down is up and up is down out of no where because even with professional help it never hurts to use all your resources.

Simply using this place as an additional resource in addition to professionals. Don't add this to the signature by the way out of respect man you guys drop knowledge and have been there done that on plenty of stuff so I just thought what the heck......if there's a place where someone else has experienced going from normal person to staying up for 24 hours because George soros sent assasins after you the rooshvforum has gotta be it man...guess I was wrong....and apologize....my mom said not to talk about my surfbreaks to strangers so well call this a surfbreak problem that doesn't exist and be done with it....

[godfather dust]

Steezey if you are willing to try one more medication abilify is not sedating or known for weight gain.

I empathize with you not wanting to take the medication, I too preferred utter insanity to most of them. I only took them because a judge ordered me on injections after leaving the nut house (considered dangerous) but found the abilify acceptable in the period between the end of the court order and being mostly medication free today minus the tiny Seroquel dose I take so I'm not up days on end.

[Synezthetic]

(01-08-2018 10:53 PM)SteezeySteve Wrote:  

Already being done...i'm seeing pros and refuse to bite the bullet because i'd rather but the bullet of being locked up then be on that shit ever. I couldn't even do simple stuff like wash dishes or operate a drier because of how heavily they medicated me. This is more so a matter of seeing if anyone here had been through the same thing before where down is up and up is down out of no where because even with professional help it never hurts to use all your resources.

Simply using this place as an additional resource in addition to professionals. Don't add this to the signature by the way out of respect man you guys drop knowledge and have been there done that on plenty of stuff so I just thought what the heck......if there's a place where someone else has experienced going from normal person to staying up for 24 hours because George soros sent assasins after you the rooshvforum has gotta be it man...guess I was wrong....and apologize....my mom said not to talk about my surfbreaks to strangers so well call this a surfbreak problem that doesn't exist and be done with it....

If you didn't like the meds, then find different professionals.
And stay far away from the internet.

[Tex Cruise]

(01-08-2018 10:53 PM)SteezeySteve Wrote:  

Already being done...i'm seeing pros and refuse to bite the bullet because i'd rather but the bullet of being locked up then be on that shit ever. I couldn't even do simple stuff like wash dishes or operate a drier because of how heavily they medicated me. This is more so a matter of seeing if anyone here had been through the same thing before where down is up and up is down out of no where because even with professional help it never hurts to use all your resources.

Simply using this place as an additional resource in addition to professionals. Don't add this to the signature by the way out of respect man you guys drop knowledge and have been there done that on plenty of stuff so I just thought what the heck......if there's a place where someone else has experienced going from normal person to staying up for 24 hours because George soros sent assasins after you the rooshvforum has gotta be it man...guess I was wrong....and apologize....my mom said not to talk about my surfbreaks to strangers so well call this a surfbreak problem that doesn't exist and be done with it....

This forum is not brushing you off. This forum is giving you good, sound, sensible advice.

Evidently it's not what you want to hear.

Even Suits has taken the time out of his day to write an honest, dead serious post for your benefit.

If members here wanted to brush you off they might say "Go find some other forum where they tell you it's because of toxins in your liver from the patriarchy and chemtrails, and all you need is more sunshine and organic soy."

But that would be bad advice. Don't go do that, seek professional help.

[mcw78912]

Certainly see a mental health professional asap, as others have already stated.

I am not a medical doctor but have a close relative who had a serious mental health issue. He was experiencing hallucinations as well, and it was quite bad when I got to know this was going on. Fortunately, we have a psychiatrist in the family who is exceptionally renowned. Upon hearing the symptoms in details my relative was diagnosed with schizophrenia. But hallucinations can be associated with other disorders as well, as far as I know.

Talk to a doctor immediately and stick to the medicines religiously. One of the main problems for this kind of a situation is the patient's complete lack of self-awareness/insight into his/her own behavior. They think they are ok and stop taking the medicines - which leads to recurrence of the episodes and delays recovery.

10 years after the diagnosis and following through on the medicines, my relative now leads a completely normal life with a great job, and has a wife and a kid.

[Handsome Creepy Eel]

You abslutely need professional help, this goes well beyond an ordinary mood disorder.

That said, I advise you to stop going out at nights and working out 3 times a day and put that time into A) regular sleep, B) regular meals and C) a light workout 1/day, preferrably something calinsthetics-related.

I am getting the feeling that your chaotic, hectic schedule is designed to attempt to prove something, whether to yourself or to someone else, but it's obviously not helping you. If you're at the point where you're having massive hallucinations and brekdowns, you can't just "power through it". There's no power left!

You need a radical change towards a simple life, and you need it right now. Don't strain your body and mind anymore because the damage might become permanent.

Talk to a doctor about this and about a lot more. There's no shame in taking it easy.

[Roosh]

This type of issue is beyond the expertise of the forum. You need to consult with a mental health specialist.