Hi guys.
I don't really want to write a book in that post, although if anyone would need some details from me - I'm ready to cooperate.
Basically I need a general advice and I suspect that this is a matter or inner game, so I thought you can help me.
As you can see above English is not my first language, even though I live in the UK (Edinburgh, Scotland) since 2014. I recently realised that I am a loser with shitty reputation. Why loser you might ask? Well, I have no University Degree or any education above high school (despite the fact that I started like 3 degrees). My job is shitty and low - at the moment I work for recruitment agency as a catering assistant. Low skill low paid job. I live with my family, I am overweight, I have no friends and I haven't been fucking since I was 19 years old (I am 27). Yep. And the thing that I am in UK as an immigrant doesn't help at all, in fact I am thinking about going back to my country.
Back in my country 'things' were slightly better. I know I could be in about 7 relationships since I was 19, but it didn't happened. I was a pussy and at the end I wasn't interested that much. There is more. Twice I had an opportunity to have sex with girls (they were literally in my bed) but I haven't done it. I was so fucking scared that I will not perform. And I used to considered myself as a strong man!
There is more, but like I said - I don't want to write a book.
The conclusion is: I think I have huge anxiety problem while living in UK. My self confidence is low, especially with British chicks because simply sometimes I don't understand Scots. That is why I believe it is an inner game problem. I have no motivation, I over-analyse things, I am an ass hole sometimes, sometimes I drink too much and I feel I lost my intelligence level. How to overcome all of this and be a killer (be a little bit more successful)? Please, help?
I don't really want to write a book in that post, although if anyone would need some details from me - I'm ready to cooperate.
Basically I need a general advice and I suspect that this is a matter or inner game, so I thought you can help me.
As you can see above English is not my first language, even though I live in the UK (Edinburgh, Scotland) since 2014. I recently realised that I am a loser with shitty reputation. Why loser you might ask? Well, I have no University Degree or any education above high school (despite the fact that I started like 3 degrees). My job is shitty and low - at the moment I work for recruitment agency as a catering assistant. Low skill low paid job. I live with my family, I am overweight, I have no friends and I haven't been fucking since I was 19 years old (I am 27). Yep. And the thing that I am in UK as an immigrant doesn't help at all, in fact I am thinking about going back to my country.
Back in my country 'things' were slightly better. I know I could be in about 7 relationships since I was 19, but it didn't happened. I was a pussy and at the end I wasn't interested that much. There is more. Twice I had an opportunity to have sex with girls (they were literally in my bed) but I haven't done it. I was so fucking scared that I will not perform. And I used to considered myself as a strong man!
There is more, but like I said - I don't want to write a book.
The conclusion is: I think I have huge anxiety problem while living in UK. My self confidence is low, especially with British chicks because simply sometimes I don't understand Scots. That is why I believe it is an inner game problem. I have no motivation, I over-analyse things, I am an ass hole sometimes, sometimes I drink too much and I feel I lost my intelligence level. How to overcome all of this and be a killer (be a little bit more successful)? Please, help?