Roosh's great post on
why your game sucks came as revelation to me. I realised some of the bad mistakes I was doing. I've been having to reinvent myself since gaming on a foreign land, and been breaking down the basics ever since.
I realise that alcohol is not my friend, but something I actually became dependent for while gaming women. And I don't find it realistic to go out 4 nights a week getting drunk. I'm starting to feel the effects of it. Not cool.
I am commited now to cutting it back, completely, at least for a while. I want real change, real game, no crutches.
Well, it sounds nice on paper, but it is not that easy when you are the only sober person on a completely drunk environment with loud music and people grinding.
I felt pathetic. Yet I still didn't drink.
I realised that I don't have many problems approaching girls sober, I just screw up big, big time -escalating- while sober.
I had this cute girl all over me, giving me tons of kino. Although she was out with friends, she practically took the initiative to ask me out tonight. She gave me kino constantly, and aside from some light hip touching... I couldn't make myself do the move, something that alcohol helped me with. Alcohol opens the doors to a beast within me that helps at those moments.
Things started running bad after a while. Guys went over her caveman style, cockblocking me, and when I was having a more "serious" talk with her (still having a hard time escalating), one of her friends just fell flat on the ground drunk, and they went outside. After some good minutes I went outside also, talked to her, and she told me that she had to leave with her friend, and asked me out again on Friday. My take is that it is still on.
Point being: something that I could have done if drunk I was far from able to do when sober. I actually also find my wits and humor are lessened when I'm sober, as I obviously am not having a good time as the others.
That was a lesson- I am commited to staying a good while without drinking, to sort this sh*t out.
I came here for some words of wisdom on gaming sober... help a brother out.