Haha I used that monologue for my acting class. Great speech.
Every normal man must be tempted, at times, to spit upon his hands, hoist the black flag, and begin slitting throats. - H L Mencken
Quarter Life Crisis
Every normal man must be tempted, at times, to spit upon his hands, hoist the black flag, and begin slitting throats. - H L Mencken
It is a great speech. And I agree with every word of it.
Not only do I not believe in God. Even if I were shown incontrovertable evidence of his existence - I would still refuse to bow down to him. And if God can't deal with an annoying prick like me refusing to worship him then he is not as all-powerful as he thinks he is.
I mean I love Martin Scorsese. But if he told me to worship him I would tell him to go fuck himself.
Not only do I not believe in God. Even if I were shown incontrovertable evidence of his existence - I would still refuse to bow down to him. And if God can't deal with an annoying prick like me refusing to worship him then he is not as all-powerful as he thinks he is.
I mean I love Martin Scorsese. But if he told me to worship him I would tell him to go fuck himself.
Not only do I not believe in God. Even if I were shown incontrovertable evidence of his existence - I would still refuse to bow down to him. And if God can't deal with an annoying prick like me refusing to worship him then he is not as all-powerful as he thinks he is.
I mean I love Martin Scorsese. But if he told me to worship him I would tell him to go fuck himself.
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I don't pray to God...I pray to Joe Pesci
I mean I love Martin Scorsese. But if he told me to worship him I would tell him to go fuck himself.
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I don't pray to God...I pray to Joe Pesci
Every normal man must be tempted, at times, to spit upon his hands, hoist the black flag, and begin slitting throats. - H L Mencken
One thing to consider is that you can stay in the game way longer than you probably imagine right now. As long as you take care of your body and don't get bogged down in the weight gain, diabetes, metabolic syndrome spiral you can maintain most of your energy into your 30's and even 40's.
Congrats on the job. Everyone has to earn their living somehow. You can always quit after a year or two, or go on a work sabbatical and get out of cubicle land for a while. You just need to think how to frame it so you don't piss people off and burn bridges. As you no doubt know London is a great location for people who are looking for professional contract positions. Do a 6 month contract in the city. Go travel the world for 9 months, Come back and do 12 month contract. Go travel again. Great lifestyle as far as I'm concerned.
Congrats on the job. Everyone has to earn their living somehow. You can always quit after a year or two, or go on a work sabbatical and get out of cubicle land for a while. You just need to think how to frame it so you don't piss people off and burn bridges. As you no doubt know London is a great location for people who are looking for professional contract positions. Do a 6 month contract in the city. Go travel the world for 9 months, Come back and do 12 month contract. Go travel again. Great lifestyle as far as I'm concerned.
Quote: (02-23-2013 08:33 PM)cardguy Wrote:
I have my own place. And my greatest fun is singing loudly along to Whitney Houston, drinking bourbon whilst reading books on Hitler. At 5 in the morning.
I think I'm fucked in the head. But I love the freedom to do what the fuck I want. Life is what you make of it. And nothing is more fun than finding your own perverse pleasures. The government hasn't yet figured out a way to tax fun.
Every weekend - I am like a 6 year old kid at Christmas.
Yet so many people hand that freedom over to some bitch who wants to clamp down on them.
I discovered my favourite Whitney Houston song in this collection of brilliant monologues from the film American Psycho. These are my three favourite scenes from the movie. And in each scene, Patrick Bateman gives a brilliant deconstruction of a timeless piece of 80's pop music.
To me - the Whitney Houston song is an anthem for MGTOW.
Just really read this post. Cardguy we'd get along...every weekend for the past few weeks i've been going out and buying a bottle of top shelf booze (just picked up the Bulleit 10 year).
Just picked up a Tina Turner vinyl.
Typing this, on a lazy Tuesday with nothing to do, laying in my comfortable ass bed, and there's a copy of Mein Kampf on my bookshelf, a few books over are American Psycho, Complete Works of Shakespeare, a biography of Beethoven, and some Charles Bukowski.
Guess I've been MGTOW for a while w/out knowing what it was...
Quote: (02-25-2013 11:09 AM)Bad Hussar Wrote:
One thing to consider is that you can stay in the game way longer than you probably imagine right now. As long as you take care of your body and don't get bogged down in the weight gain, diabetes, metabolic syndrome spiral you can maintain most of your energy into your 30's and even 40's.
Congrats on the job. Everyone has to earn their living somehow. You can always quit after a year or two, or go on a work sabbatical and get out of cubicle land for a while. You just need to think how to frame it so you don't piss people off and burn bridges. As you no doubt know London is a great location for people who are looking for professional contract positions. Do a 6 month contract in the city. Go travel the world for 9 months, Come back and do 12 month contract. Go travel again. Great lifestyle as far as I'm concerned.
What sort of jobs are we talking that involve these kinds of contract positions? IT, consulting?
Quote: (02-26-2013 01:07 PM)RichieP Wrote:
Quote: (02-25-2013 11:09 AM)Bad Hussar Wrote:
One thing to consider is that you can stay in the game way longer than you probably imagine right now. As long as you take care of your body and don't get bogged down in the weight gain, diabetes, metabolic syndrome spiral you can maintain most of your energy into your 30's and even 40's.
Congrats on the job. Everyone has to earn their living somehow. You can always quit after a year or two, or go on a work sabbatical and get out of cubicle land for a while. You just need to think how to frame it so you don't piss people off and burn bridges. As you no doubt know London is a great location for people who are looking for professional contract positions. Do a 6 month contract in the city. Go travel the world for 9 months, Come back and do 12 month contract. Go travel again. Great lifestyle as far as I'm concerned.
What sort of jobs are we talking that involve these kinds of contract positions? IT, consulting?
Yes. IT and consulting are two. But Accounting (Qualified and Part Qualified) assignments are also numerous in the City. Back Office Banking operations is also a good field. In the broader London area positions in Marketing even become available as contract positions. There's so much going on there, and companies often don't need and/or want to hire permanent staff for many reasons. Check out all the big recruiters websites. Tough it has been a while since I worked in London I'll bet good money that all of them still have sections on their sites for short term contract positions. Michael Page and Hay's are two agencies that spring to mind for me. Contract work also keeps you out of the silly office politics.
Quote: (02-26-2013 01:59 PM)Bad Hussar Wrote:
Yes. IT and consulting are two. But Accounting (Qualified and Part Qualified) assignments are also numerous in the City. Back Office Banking operations is also a good field. In the broader London area positions in Marketing even become available as contract positions. There's so much going on there, and companies often don't need and/or want to hire permanent staff for many reasons. Check out all the big recruiters websites. Tough it has been a while since I worked in London I'll bet good money that all of them still have sections on their sites for short term contract positions. Michael Page and Hay's are two agencies that spring to mind for me. Contract work also keeps you out of the silly office politics.
Nice one, thanks man.
In the same boat teedub
Went to school for a year, dropped out and grew in Nor Cal USA and after getting involved with shady motherfuckers came home more of a man then my classmates, Albeit a manic depressive suicidal man, and now I'm back at school in Alaska pursuing a degree in computer science, working out every weekday, and getting freelance work.
It's tough, like life should be, but I feel like my dad should have been there, like my grandfather should have kicked my ass into productivity, but they didnt, and now were here. I'm still fucked in the head and I overindulge for too often when I drink. The constant demons, the fucking drone everyone morning where I wake up and realize that today I could die, and that I haven't been the hero of my life. What sort of bullshit is that? I can't respect myself? I let myself get out control spinning into fights, angrily cursing the gods, trying to reach enlightenment by popping nootropics and whiskey. I can't fucking stand the weakness. God damn, Im positively shaking with rage when my testorene and manic stage kick in, I just want to murder weak men who remind me of my failures.
I don't know what I'm going to do with my mentally fucked version of a quarter life crisis, but after reading Enjoy the Decline and The Way of Men I know I want to graduate in computer science and chemistry, then go to school in San Diego for biochemistry and then move to one of the 4 tigers (I'm thinking more seoul or hong kong)
I have a 7 life plan described here:
http://www.highexistence.com/7life-syste...your-life/
I am using zen to done (simplified David Allen GTD) and pomadairo to actually get shit done
Im checking in with my gang weekly
And I have a think and grow rich 'cash desire' pledge to be completed by September.
I bang rarely, the nature of Alaska - everyone has already hooked up for the winter, and I'm staying at home till I get my finances in order. But I still do.
I expect that I'll wake up someday soon and burst forth from the child I have been and into the world as some furious gorilla, leaving value and used women by the wayside. But that won't happen unless I get my shit in order. I did take a moment to read polymath's response and:
"Stay aware that your actions now will echo throughout later parts of your life. Your actions -- not your feelings, actions. As long as your actions are carrying you in a direction that you desire, whether in fitness or in your career, with a woman or with your lifestyle, they are good. When you feel detached from the universe, capitalize on your freedom from other people by focusing all of your awareness and energy toward good actions."
Is freaking brilliant. I have been studying stoicism, toaism and lurking on a few alpha forums (JRE, Roosh, ect ect) and this rings very true.
As that was read a couple of things clicked into place
My fathers advice
A random youtuber
And one of captain capitalisms most recent posts.
My father said:
"if you do something for 8 hours a day, totally, with no distractions, you cannot fail to reach your goal."
I realized I spend 8 hrs a day wasting time, and I get the goal of a wasted life. I used to play video games, but know I spend that time smoking ecigs and talking with all the people I know on campus. I waste my life and I wonder why I feel wasted.
Frank Yang - facebook.com/biggerstrongerwierder
Body Builder, Musician, philosopher, photographer. This guy is wacky, alpha, and does whatever the fuck he wants. Sure a ton of it is immature and unrefined, but if this dude can do whatever the fuck he wants, what am I doing wasting time with excuses.
And finally the Cap post:
http://captaincapitalism.blogspot.com/20...month.html
I don't think I could live spartan, and that upsets me. I would die in any other time, that's how weak I am. That's crap. That's a whole lot of crap. So I'm going to do everything in my power to live on 24 hrs a day and become the best possible man I'm capable of being.
I'm in Alaska might as well use the hardest environment in the states to forge a man who could out drink Churchill, out think tesla, out fight Hemingway, and be more aesthetic than Pitt.
Actions. Not feelings.
Now that I've resolved to stop this bitch ass mentality, is there anything you blokes want to advise me on, things that you wish your 19 year old self know?
And best of luck teedub, fuck shit up bro.
Went to school for a year, dropped out and grew in Nor Cal USA and after getting involved with shady motherfuckers came home more of a man then my classmates, Albeit a manic depressive suicidal man, and now I'm back at school in Alaska pursuing a degree in computer science, working out every weekday, and getting freelance work.
It's tough, like life should be, but I feel like my dad should have been there, like my grandfather should have kicked my ass into productivity, but they didnt, and now were here. I'm still fucked in the head and I overindulge for too often when I drink. The constant demons, the fucking drone everyone morning where I wake up and realize that today I could die, and that I haven't been the hero of my life. What sort of bullshit is that? I can't respect myself? I let myself get out control spinning into fights, angrily cursing the gods, trying to reach enlightenment by popping nootropics and whiskey. I can't fucking stand the weakness. God damn, Im positively shaking with rage when my testorene and manic stage kick in, I just want to murder weak men who remind me of my failures.
I don't know what I'm going to do with my mentally fucked version of a quarter life crisis, but after reading Enjoy the Decline and The Way of Men I know I want to graduate in computer science and chemistry, then go to school in San Diego for biochemistry and then move to one of the 4 tigers (I'm thinking more seoul or hong kong)
I have a 7 life plan described here:
http://www.highexistence.com/7life-syste...your-life/
I am using zen to done (simplified David Allen GTD) and pomadairo to actually get shit done
Im checking in with my gang weekly
And I have a think and grow rich 'cash desire' pledge to be completed by September.
I bang rarely, the nature of Alaska - everyone has already hooked up for the winter, and I'm staying at home till I get my finances in order. But I still do.
I expect that I'll wake up someday soon and burst forth from the child I have been and into the world as some furious gorilla, leaving value and used women by the wayside. But that won't happen unless I get my shit in order. I did take a moment to read polymath's response and:
"Stay aware that your actions now will echo throughout later parts of your life. Your actions -- not your feelings, actions. As long as your actions are carrying you in a direction that you desire, whether in fitness or in your career, with a woman or with your lifestyle, they are good. When you feel detached from the universe, capitalize on your freedom from other people by focusing all of your awareness and energy toward good actions."
Is freaking brilliant. I have been studying stoicism, toaism and lurking on a few alpha forums (JRE, Roosh, ect ect) and this rings very true.
As that was read a couple of things clicked into place
My fathers advice
A random youtuber
And one of captain capitalisms most recent posts.
My father said:
"if you do something for 8 hours a day, totally, with no distractions, you cannot fail to reach your goal."
I realized I spend 8 hrs a day wasting time, and I get the goal of a wasted life. I used to play video games, but know I spend that time smoking ecigs and talking with all the people I know on campus. I waste my life and I wonder why I feel wasted.
Frank Yang - facebook.com/biggerstrongerwierder
Body Builder, Musician, philosopher, photographer. This guy is wacky, alpha, and does whatever the fuck he wants. Sure a ton of it is immature and unrefined, but if this dude can do whatever the fuck he wants, what am I doing wasting time with excuses.
And finally the Cap post:
http://captaincapitalism.blogspot.com/20...month.html
I don't think I could live spartan, and that upsets me. I would die in any other time, that's how weak I am. That's crap. That's a whole lot of crap. So I'm going to do everything in my power to live on 24 hrs a day and become the best possible man I'm capable of being.
I'm in Alaska might as well use the hardest environment in the states to forge a man who could out drink Churchill, out think tesla, out fight Hemingway, and be more aesthetic than Pitt.
Actions. Not feelings.
Now that I've resolved to stop this bitch ass mentality, is there anything you blokes want to advise me on, things that you wish your 19 year old self know?
And best of luck teedub, fuck shit up bro.
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