I'd appreciate any input/advice from the fine gentlemen of this board on the following scenario. Advice from people I know in real life has been poor at best.
I lost my virginity fairly late in life. I was in college at the time. Shortly after taking the vaccum packing off my genitalia I started dating a girl (let's call her X) in college (this was 2003). She was a virgin at the time and I took her virginity. This was the first time I had ever experienced strong emotions towards a girl and I shutter to think about how beta I must have been. I feel in love and, unsurprisingly, the relationship did not last long. To be frank, even 9 years later, I've never felt as strongly towards a girl as I did towards X.
I provide this as background to my current problem. X and I have many of the same close knit college friends. She is currently married and I'm single (but getting laid regularly though with a quality of woman I'd like to improve). I'm forced to see her more more frequently than I would like. Everytime I run into her it puts me in a terrible mood. I'm infuriated my friends (her friends too) make me see her regularly. What should I do? I can't seem to rid myself (even 9 years later!) of that terrible beta feeling in the gut. Would appreciate any helpful advice.
I lost my virginity fairly late in life. I was in college at the time. Shortly after taking the vaccum packing off my genitalia I started dating a girl (let's call her X) in college (this was 2003). She was a virgin at the time and I took her virginity. This was the first time I had ever experienced strong emotions towards a girl and I shutter to think about how beta I must have been. I feel in love and, unsurprisingly, the relationship did not last long. To be frank, even 9 years later, I've never felt as strongly towards a girl as I did towards X.
I provide this as background to my current problem. X and I have many of the same close knit college friends. She is currently married and I'm single (but getting laid regularly though with a quality of woman I'd like to improve). I'm forced to see her more more frequently than I would like. Everytime I run into her it puts me in a terrible mood. I'm infuriated my friends (her friends too) make me see her regularly. What should I do? I can't seem to rid myself (even 9 years later!) of that terrible beta feeling in the gut. Would appreciate any helpful advice.