I don't evny you OP.
Rough position to be in.
I'd date long distance. Take trips out of town and visit girls from ok cupid/tinder/pof
It's the only way you can make yourself decently free to date and make the mistakes you need to take.
OR
Just move out of the town and start a new life in a bigger city.
No matter how you play it, once you start dating around women will talk and you'll become the town gossip. And considering what we've seen in the news about sexual hookups now turning into rape/sexual assault 15+ years from now. And people will remember the gossip about and so and so dating for 3 months back in the spring of 2019.
Nothing good can come from this.
Rough position to be in.
I'd date long distance. Take trips out of town and visit girls from ok cupid/tinder/pof
It's the only way you can make yourself decently free to date and make the mistakes you need to take.
OR
Just move out of the town and start a new life in a bigger city.
No matter how you play it, once you start dating around women will talk and you'll become the town gossip. And considering what we've seen in the news about sexual hookups now turning into rape/sexual assault 15+ years from now. And people will remember the gossip about and so and so dating for 3 months back in the spring of 2019.
Nothing good can come from this.