Your shrink is retarded and from everything you've described you're a very self aware person which thankfully will make you very effective at learning game, although it can be a painful and difficult given your predisposition for introspection.
Read read read. Then experiment. I was in a similar position not too long ago, couple years. These are the books that helped me in order of importance
Rational Male, PIMP, The Art of War, Meditations, and Day Bang.
Books will only get you so far, you have to learn how to be a self actualized man. Part of that involves taking risks, making mistakes, and enjoying success. You can't sit on the sidelines and make excuses when you want something and getting experience is of the utmost importance. You may have gotten lucky and stumbled on to success before, but now you need to learn to hunt.
Good luck
Read read read. Then experiment. I was in a similar position not too long ago, couple years. These are the books that helped me in order of importance
Rational Male, PIMP, The Art of War, Meditations, and Day Bang.
Books will only get you so far, you have to learn how to be a self actualized man. Part of that involves taking risks, making mistakes, and enjoying success. You can't sit on the sidelines and make excuses when you want something and getting experience is of the utmost importance. You may have gotten lucky and stumbled on to success before, but now you need to learn to hunt.
Good luck