[ThundercockVeritas]

Something tells me you're on the right track. I think you have a good chance of reaching that satisfied level. Personally, I just get tired of how lopsided and deceptive this world is. Sometimes no matter what you do or where you're at, it doesn't work. There was an article written awhile back... I forgot what it was called... but it basically advocated doing everything you possibly could... and only give up when you think you've tried everything. I've tried quite a few things and I'll keep trying, but eventually I'll run out of time and I know there are certain things that will never change save divine intervention.