[OGNorCal707]

You're asking a bunch of random anonymous people on the internet to answer personal questions about your life, but the only one who will know the answers are you. I can't tell you if you should get a wife or kids, or whether you should live in the U.S., because I don't know you, your values, your desires, your goals, only you do, so while we can maybe give you feedback or advice, you need to figure this shit out for yourself.