12-18+ month anger phaser checking in. Tack another 5 years of confusion prior to that on. What an ugly road it was. The irony of it all is my past is littered with tons of missed opportunities and now apparent lessons.
You are 100000% correct on the reasons and what occurs when you are doing so. Unfortunately, the resentment is part of the process and the only way to avoid it is starting the "rp" before getting burned by a chick.
As my anger is still fresh here are the mistakes and lessons learned:
1. Assumed women played fair and would be honest. The girl who this all stems from was sweet and demure I was in a relationship with for 4 years.
2. Tried to reconcile my catholic and small town up bringing with the delightful flesh opportunities my ID could produce. What a fucking quagmire. This led to me having my dick in my hand thinking about a lot on the "what if..." scenarios when in reality all I had to do was stop being a pussy. I cheated a few times and resisted most of the time but led to guilt and constantly brought me back to point 1.
3. Allowed ugly game of "what if.." to create a nasty feedback loop and let my self esteem take slow lurching hits.
4. Low Self esteem & stopped improving/taking risks.
5. Became bitter, resentful, and angry.
Realized this all sucked and I had lost "it". Started back on the path and fluttered around with D&P and the like for a year. Finally, created a new me and have a new found self confidence. The anger still boils up from time to time but I'm finally at peace with my past mistakes and how the world is.
Observations I've made;
-the longer you are "bluepill" or in my prior life "bluepill alpha" the angrier you will be. The whole world took a shit on my early twenties and nobody interjected. My Dad and brother didn't know any better. I'm cool with it now.
-The more you do things in your social life out of obligation, the nastier the resentment will be. Men don't do things out of social obligations. Women do and they are miserable.
-the more self interested action you take, the happier you will be.
-The outer game will improve much quicker than the inner game. You'll know the outer game is on point when your interactions are fucking up because of behavioral missteps.
-Build you own lane. ROK, Roosh, D&P, Krauser, etc all have their unique voices because of their experiences. These experiences are unique to them and should be reference points in your new reality. Ultimately, you have to define your own world post "redpill" so while their ideas are valuable and you should investigate their products to grow, be your own man. It isn't enough to be aware, you have to kill your former self with their ideas, accept the anger, and create the new you.
-Smile and be happy you this opportunity to make a transformational jump in life.
Thats my input on being angry.
Fun fact; beginning to attract the right type of chick again. Chow go full circle bitchezzzzz
You are 100000% correct on the reasons and what occurs when you are doing so. Unfortunately, the resentment is part of the process and the only way to avoid it is starting the "rp" before getting burned by a chick.
As my anger is still fresh here are the mistakes and lessons learned:
1. Assumed women played fair and would be honest. The girl who this all stems from was sweet and demure I was in a relationship with for 4 years.
2. Tried to reconcile my catholic and small town up bringing with the delightful flesh opportunities my ID could produce. What a fucking quagmire. This led to me having my dick in my hand thinking about a lot on the "what if..." scenarios when in reality all I had to do was stop being a pussy. I cheated a few times and resisted most of the time but led to guilt and constantly brought me back to point 1.
3. Allowed ugly game of "what if.." to create a nasty feedback loop and let my self esteem take slow lurching hits.
4. Low Self esteem & stopped improving/taking risks.
5. Became bitter, resentful, and angry.
Realized this all sucked and I had lost "it". Started back on the path and fluttered around with D&P and the like for a year. Finally, created a new me and have a new found self confidence. The anger still boils up from time to time but I'm finally at peace with my past mistakes and how the world is.
Observations I've made;
-the longer you are "bluepill" or in my prior life "bluepill alpha" the angrier you will be. The whole world took a shit on my early twenties and nobody interjected. My Dad and brother didn't know any better. I'm cool with it now.
-The more you do things in your social life out of obligation, the nastier the resentment will be. Men don't do things out of social obligations. Women do and they are miserable.
-the more self interested action you take, the happier you will be.
-The outer game will improve much quicker than the inner game. You'll know the outer game is on point when your interactions are fucking up because of behavioral missteps.
-Build you own lane. ROK, Roosh, D&P, Krauser, etc all have their unique voices because of their experiences. These experiences are unique to them and should be reference points in your new reality. Ultimately, you have to define your own world post "redpill" so while their ideas are valuable and you should investigate their products to grow, be your own man. It isn't enough to be aware, you have to kill your former self with their ideas, accept the anger, and create the new you.
-Smile and be happy you this opportunity to make a transformational jump in life.
Thats my input on being angry.
Fun fact; beginning to attract the right type of chick again. Chow go full circle bitchezzzzz