Bro, congrats on improving. But for the love of all that's pink and moist can you stop with the self depreciating crap? So you had oneitis and you were acting all beta, let it go! Move on!
You begin every post with "I was being a little bitch..." then you ask good questions and report progress. Like Dalaran said, this attitude will hurt your inner game. We all had and still occasionally have beta moments and fuck ups. Stop focusing on them and fake it until you make it. Just keep telling yourself you have what it takes, you clearly are motivated to get to a better state, so act like it. Stop letting this past beta shit drag you down, you're better than that!
You begin every post with "I was being a little bitch..." then you ask good questions and report progress. Like Dalaran said, this attitude will hurt your inner game. We all had and still occasionally have beta moments and fuck ups. Stop focusing on them and fake it until you make it. Just keep telling yourself you have what it takes, you clearly are motivated to get to a better state, so act like it. Stop letting this past beta shit drag you down, you're better than that!
Per Ardua Ad Astra | "I have come here to chew bubblegum and kick ass. And I'm all out of bubblegum"
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