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Quote:

You can't go back home to your family, back home to your childhood, back home to romantic love, back home to a young man's dreams of glory and of fame, back home to exile, to escape to Europe and some foreign land, back home to lyricism, to singing just for singing's sake, back home to aestheticism, to one's youthful idea of 'the artist' and the all-sufficiency of 'art' and 'beauty' and 'love,' back home to the ivory tower, back home to places in the country, to the cottage in Bermude, away from all the strife and conflict of the world, back home to the father you have lost and have been looking for, back home to someone who can help you, save you, ease the burden for you, back home to the old forms and systems of things which once seemed everlasting but which are changing all the time--back home to the escapes of Time and Memory.

It's a good quote.

My personal experience is that after having lived abroad for a long time, you will never feel 'home' like you did before. You can feel more at ease, enjoy the familiarity, the language, the fresh air all that which you mention, but if you think that you will return now triumphant to your hometown and expect everything to both be as you remember it and at the same time, want to be recognized as the new man you are, then it will be a disappointment.

Prolonged travel changes you for good. Like YMG wrote, I think it's more realistic and better to consider your home country like you would any potential expat opportunity. It will not be like a paradise lost, even with a lot of money. Don't move back home unless you see yourself moving there purely from expat considerations.