OGNorCal is pretty much the definition of purple pill which is why he's struggling.
My advice unrelated to this:
1. Stop smoking weed
2. Stop believing in relationships, you even "hope" that Roosh gets married one day. You're still a "nice guy" you care so much about a random chick's opinion of you, give up the blue pill or you will get paved at the 7+ range
3. You still think chicks are out of your league this is a poverty mindset, if people don't start asking you "how the fuck are you with her" you're shooting too low
4. You overthink and suffer from paranoia this is how I am certain about point 1
5. You believe in ceilings there is no fucking ceiling
I can triangulate what you do, what you look like and your age bracket without even meeting you.
Stop analyzing, stop analyzing, stop analyzing
My advice unrelated to this:
1. Stop smoking weed
2. Stop believing in relationships, you even "hope" that Roosh gets married one day. You're still a "nice guy" you care so much about a random chick's opinion of you, give up the blue pill or you will get paved at the 7+ range
3. You still think chicks are out of your league this is a poverty mindset, if people don't start asking you "how the fuck are you with her" you're shooting too low
4. You overthink and suffer from paranoia this is how I am certain about point 1
5. You believe in ceilings there is no fucking ceiling
I can triangulate what you do, what you look like and your age bracket without even meeting you.
Stop analyzing, stop analyzing, stop analyzing