The first girl I got into bed, a while ago, this is an anecdotal story for you. I was really into this girl, back in my beta years (![[Image: lol.gif]](https://rooshvforum.network/images/smilies/new/lol.gif)
) I was all set to go, there she was, I stripped her clothes off, and pretty much right at that moment where things were about to happen, I lost it. I wasn't being assertive at all, I even asked her, in such a stupid way "so....um....should... I mean... like do...you want to?" and it completely KILLED the whole moment, lost my boner, told her I couldn't do it the WHOLE thing. Since then, that experience has been drilled into my head and I always think to myself "it's going to happen again, it's going to happen again, it's going to happen again".. .However, when I'm completely in the moment, and I allow myself to relax, I'm ready.. I'm still a virgin too man, and it's frustrating as hell and believe me I KNOW. But I, we, will get through it. I've been working on myself, and I realize that's all I really can do. You're in the right place believe me, reading your story is almost comical to me, it's so similar to my first experience with that and YES, the no porn and maybe masturbating once a week is very helpful.
I guess in the end it all boils down to inner game. One regret that I have with that specific moment was I didn't take charge at the right moment. She wanted to be manhandled, and I was almost successful in doing so, but at that one crucial moment I became nervous, and nerves/anxiety will be the killer - the end all of moments but there are ways to defeat those thoughts and I've been successful in doing so with all of the mental programming and things I've been working on. No doubt, it's not great all of the time, but a hell of a lot better than before.
I feel as though I'm sending a message to myself, but honestly, keep on keepin' on, that's what I'm doing. Moves will be made and things will happen.
) I was all set to go, there she was, I stripped her clothes off, and pretty much right at that moment where things were about to happen, I lost it. I wasn't being assertive at all, I even asked her, in such a stupid way "so....um....should... I mean... like do...you want to?" and it completely KILLED the whole moment, lost my boner, told her I couldn't do it the WHOLE thing. Since then, that experience has been drilled into my head and I always think to myself "it's going to happen again, it's going to happen again, it's going to happen again".. .However, when I'm completely in the moment, and I allow myself to relax, I'm ready.. I'm still a virgin too man, and it's frustrating as hell and believe me I KNOW. But I, we, will get through it. I've been working on myself, and I realize that's all I really can do. You're in the right place believe me, reading your story is almost comical to me, it's so similar to my first experience with that and YES, the no porn and maybe masturbating once a week is very helpful. I guess in the end it all boils down to inner game. One regret that I have with that specific moment was I didn't take charge at the right moment. She wanted to be manhandled, and I was almost successful in doing so, but at that one crucial moment I became nervous, and nerves/anxiety will be the killer - the end all of moments but there are ways to defeat those thoughts and I've been successful in doing so with all of the mental programming and things I've been working on. No doubt, it's not great all of the time, but a hell of a lot better than before.
I feel as though I'm sending a message to myself, but honestly, keep on keepin' on, that's what I'm doing. Moves will be made and things will happen.