Keep your head up Ali. Sometimes all it takes is a change of pace; some sober sex with a regular to regroup and get the booze out of your system. Sounds like you need to be constantly on edge in the DR, maybe spend some time where it's more relaxed. High energy game really takes it out of some people, I guess it energizes others. I can't really do it. Do you need to start running lower energy game?
"A flower can not remain in bloom for years, but a garden can be cultivated to bloom throughout seasons and years." - xsplat