You're not alone man. I'm the same way. I'm an only child, and ever since I was a kid I knew it was always going to be up to me to keep my family name alive. Seeing how shitty our culture is I'm just not sure if it's a dream I want to make come true anymore. I really don't see society or the economy improving and I think to myself why bring someone into this world. There's more benefit in just living entirely for yourself. It's a back and forth battle I have with myself. Do I want keep rotating women, or find a solid one to have pop out kids. Time will tell I guess.
Dreams are like horses; they run wild on the earth. Catch one and ride it. Throw a leg over and ride it for all its worth.
Psalm 25:7
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