This requires a bit of backround, but the payoff is worth it.
About 3 years ago I was coming out of a very rough period of my life. To add insult to injury I was in a terrible, sexless, marriage. This sexless marriage is what brought me to the Red Pill. I found myself back in college, working on prerequisites to get into nursing school..... So the stage is set... A 30 year old beta male, and although I had lost 40lbs, I weighed in at 260 on my 6'2" frame. Between my weight, my station, and my just breaking out of the blue pill paradigm my SMV was probably a 5 on a 1-10 scale.
In my A&P class I sat by predominately women, seeing as though we were all in this class in order to apply for nursing school this was to be expected. I had a good rapport with these girls that I sat closest to, and I have even gone on to bang one of these girls in the past year.
One day in class two of these girls were making a joke about hooking up with each other, and I said something to the effect of " I want to see the recording". Immediately this other girl, who was not in our circle of friends, called me " creepy". Well I knew the significance of that remark, and I had no immediate retort, so I pretended as though I didn't hear anything.
Now this girl was 19-20, blonde, but chubby..... The kind of chubby that ruins a girls secondary sexual characteristics. She was a 5.5 on a good day. She was never on my radar screen, but that comment stuck with me.
She never made it into nursing school, and I never saw her after that semester..... Until today.
I had to go pay my car insurance policy. I walk into my agents office, and I see her..... But it doesn't register as her right away. What had been a chubby blonde 5.5 had transformed into a markedly obese blonde who was maybe a 3.5... A 4 if we assume she has other things to offer other than her physical appearance....heh.
She wasn't the only one who changed. You see I had just come from the gym, freshly showered, wearing a tight T-shirt on a body still pumped from a hard workout... I was 40lbs of fat lighter than when she had last seen me, but with an extra 15lbs of muscle. Since the last time I had seen her I have gone from red pill newb to a man who has embraced game, internalized it, and made self improvement his mission. If I was a 5 before I am a 7 now.
I know this, and she knew it too, it was written across her face. She was all smiles and friendly. I was all business, and acted as though this was a woman who was invisible to be.... Because sexually she was invisible to me.
That look in her eyes, that unmistakable look of sexual interest, made my day...not because I felt validated by her, but because it validated my mission. I set out to make my life better, and that is exactly what I have done.
You don't become the best version of you after the first time you read Roissy, Roosh, or Rollo.... But you keep at it, you apply what you learn, you get your ass under some iron, and you grow.
Hopefully the next time I see her she will have lost the extra 40lbs she is carrying.... I might consider being her 15 minutes of alpha.
About 3 years ago I was coming out of a very rough period of my life. To add insult to injury I was in a terrible, sexless, marriage. This sexless marriage is what brought me to the Red Pill. I found myself back in college, working on prerequisites to get into nursing school..... So the stage is set... A 30 year old beta male, and although I had lost 40lbs, I weighed in at 260 on my 6'2" frame. Between my weight, my station, and my just breaking out of the blue pill paradigm my SMV was probably a 5 on a 1-10 scale.
In my A&P class I sat by predominately women, seeing as though we were all in this class in order to apply for nursing school this was to be expected. I had a good rapport with these girls that I sat closest to, and I have even gone on to bang one of these girls in the past year.
One day in class two of these girls were making a joke about hooking up with each other, and I said something to the effect of " I want to see the recording". Immediately this other girl, who was not in our circle of friends, called me " creepy". Well I knew the significance of that remark, and I had no immediate retort, so I pretended as though I didn't hear anything.
Now this girl was 19-20, blonde, but chubby..... The kind of chubby that ruins a girls secondary sexual characteristics. She was a 5.5 on a good day. She was never on my radar screen, but that comment stuck with me.
She never made it into nursing school, and I never saw her after that semester..... Until today.
I had to go pay my car insurance policy. I walk into my agents office, and I see her..... But it doesn't register as her right away. What had been a chubby blonde 5.5 had transformed into a markedly obese blonde who was maybe a 3.5... A 4 if we assume she has other things to offer other than her physical appearance....heh.
She wasn't the only one who changed. You see I had just come from the gym, freshly showered, wearing a tight T-shirt on a body still pumped from a hard workout... I was 40lbs of fat lighter than when she had last seen me, but with an extra 15lbs of muscle. Since the last time I had seen her I have gone from red pill newb to a man who has embraced game, internalized it, and made self improvement his mission. If I was a 5 before I am a 7 now.
I know this, and she knew it too, it was written across her face. She was all smiles and friendly. I was all business, and acted as though this was a woman who was invisible to be.... Because sexually she was invisible to me.
That look in her eyes, that unmistakable look of sexual interest, made my day...not because I felt validated by her, but because it validated my mission. I set out to make my life better, and that is exactly what I have done.
You don't become the best version of you after the first time you read Roissy, Roosh, or Rollo.... But you keep at it, you apply what you learn, you get your ass under some iron, and you grow.
Hopefully the next time I see her she will have lost the extra 40lbs she is carrying.... I might consider being her 15 minutes of alpha.