My ambition is conditional. Usually with an impending deadline I get in the zone, but otherwise I am unfocused.
I have a big underlying fear of failure. If you dont get what I mean read nates recent post onnexxt level up. I'm exactly like that. I got a B average in a top university. I rarely attended class. My dick was inside of various bitches more than I studied. I had one class hwhere i failed 2 midterms and needed a good mark on the final to grad so I gave it my best and obliterated the test.
I put in 50% and get out 75% when life is like that it is hard to be ambitious about a particular thing. I have nothing to prove. But in this is also a weakness.
Is that extra 25% actually worth it? That's my biggest issue. I guess you'll never know if you don't try.
I have a big underlying fear of failure. If you dont get what I mean read nates recent post onnexxt level up. I'm exactly like that. I got a B average in a top university. I rarely attended class. My dick was inside of various bitches more than I studied. I had one class hwhere i failed 2 midterms and needed a good mark on the final to grad so I gave it my best and obliterated the test.
I put in 50% and get out 75% when life is like that it is hard to be ambitious about a particular thing. I have nothing to prove. But in this is also a weakness.
Is that extra 25% actually worth it? That's my biggest issue. I guess you'll never know if you don't try.