[TheMachinist]

I am still very much considering seeking professional mental help BUT first Im gonna get laid.Im going out tonite to try some approaches we will see what happens.Im a realist so Im not expecting anything other than the open exchange of words.Anything else would be a bonus.I've actually come clean to one of my closest friends and I mentioned going to see a few working girls just to get the juices flowing again and he agreed that's probably not a bad idea...So at some point in the next couple weeks I'm going to see a hoefessional.Im also gonna unplug from the porn and jackin' off that comes with it.I can for sure see that as being a big part of my lack of desire to pursue women...Just a random thought here but I think there are some SERIOUS intangibles that the pursuit of female presence provides.It's the one thing I have never been good at or really put any effort into.My friends most of which are complete and udder chick magnets seem to radiate manliness mean while I jack off...Fucked up.I know. Just a random thought.