Dude..start a fucking band...even if you suck at first, tell girls about the band, make it for real and serious. You said you got the Heroin Sheik look...so play off of that. Perfect excuse for you to hone in on your alouf, I don't give a shit, artist game...I'm not kidding at all either, I suspect you have a little of that in you already. You write a hella lot, (while I cannot read it all..its a good thing)...
Good luck.
PS - Do not start some gay ass emo band either.
Good luck.
PS - Do not start some gay ass emo band either.