[Cattle Rustler]

(05-01-2017 10:06 AM)sterling_archer Wrote:  

Some of his comments, guy is pure train wreck.[/b]

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That's only half right. I am desperate for love, but I won't have a relationship with any woman. I could set up a dating profile right now, or perhaps I can just ask out my classmates, I am an awkward werido but I think they'd be proud to have a tall and masculine guy to be their boyfriend. Right, I am tall, I am masculine. I should be dating women. I really should.

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I have been watching gay stuff again. I had to do it. I was very very depressed and I nearly wanted to cry again. I watched and I started feeling better, I can't let myself be unhappy again. I should just start doing my homework. Work can distract me from thinking, but I have no idea how to start writing the 2000 word essay

I am sorry I have no idea what I am rambling on about. I wanted to write a post to ask how to distract myself from depressing thoughts. But people will call me drama whore again so I used my own ways to deal with it. What I did made me a little happier but it doesn't last. I will try doing my homework to distract myself.

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Will she be with me? Will she even say anything to me? She has her own life, she is not my therapist. Could I pay her to ask her to talk to me for a while? So ridiculous right? But I cannot do this by myself. I can't even do my homework. I am just so broken. If she was willing to say something to me, maybe I'd get better. But she wouldn't talk to me. She is a person that I can only meet in my dreams.

I thought I was going through a rough patch (non-girl related), but shit....this made me feel a bit better about my outlook on life.