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Borderline Personality Disorder
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Borderline Personality Disorder

Personally, I have been with chicks like that, and it is WAY to fucking tiring to even keep them around as fuck buddies. I don't even want to fuck them for SNLs now.

The thing about them is while they SEEM really clingy and needy, they fundamentally do not believe that they deserve that affection that they beg for. So when you actually give it to them, the switch flips and they will do ABSOLUTELY anything to sabotage the relationship, because they "know" that you will abandon them eventually. Also, when that switch flips, it flips quick and it will leave you wondering what the fuck is going on.

I have was with a BPD chick that would come over to my apartment, strip off their clothes, laid face down on my bed, spread her own ass cheeks, and said "I am ready", and let me fuck her in the ass over and over again throughout the night. This was a chick that on more than one occasion, while watching a movie together on my couch, I would pull a Joe Pesci from Casino and just grab her head and lead it to my cock, and she sucked me off without resistance. We would make out in public everywhere, with me fingering her in public places (the bus, the cafeteria, restaurants, etc) often. Seriously, I thought that I had found the greatest thing in the world, a hot, submissive, superfreak.

Then the next thing I know, she gets Ice cold and super paranoid with me. She finally explains that she felt I "violated" her and made her feel unsafe in my place. Was it the times I would randomly finger her? No. Was it the times that I would see her in my kitchen, walk up behind her, pull down her pants and just fuck her with no warning like a dog in heat? Of course not. Was it the day I told her not to wear a top in my apartment so I could suck on her big boobs whenever I felt like it? Nope.

What was it that I did that violated her and made her feel unsafe? It was a night that she went in MY BED with ME IN IT to sleep and I suggested we have sex. Keep in mind, she told me she was tired and I said that was cool and to have a good nights sleep. But, as she believed it, merely SUGGESTING sex at a time when she didn't want it was threatening to her.

Now, that was not the real reason she switched on me. The real reason was that she was falling in love with me (which she had told me before) BUT I was NOT pushing her away. In her fucked up little world, she doesn't deserve love so if someone reciprocates affection to her she needs to push that dude as far away, as quickly as possible, to avoid the inevitable moment when he(Me) rejects her. She told me before we started fucking around that EVERY friend she has ever had has left her, and I will too. I didn't believe her, but it turned out that bitch was fucking Nostradamus.

The chick didn't just break up with me. Nope, she literally tried to instigate fights with me. I mean actual FIST FIGHTS. Thankfully, I never took the bait, but she was the first and only woman that I ever came close to getting violent with. She was also the first woman to create some serious ANGER toward women in general, and it took a few months after our relationship to get rid of. The relationship was so toxic (people with BPD are often referred to as "toxic") that I severed contact with her because I didn't like who I was becoming around her.

I actually wound up hooking up with her again a few years later (slow learner, I know). I just wanted to use her for sex, and whenever she expressed love and affection toward me, I just treated her like shit. Surprisingly, she responded REALLY positively to it. If I was willing to keep treating her like shit, she would have made a decent LTR. The problem with treating people like shit constantly is that you eventually start developing a shitty/negative state of mind yourself, and no pussy is worth that, no matter how submissive.

I blame her dad for how fucked up she became. I know that he beat her when she was younger. However, while she never told me, I am almost certain he molested her as well.

There is so much (relatively) mentally healthy pussy out there, there is no need to chase after the damaged goods.
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